My journey

The word... home..😭 I don’t ever feel like I’m home. I don’t really have words at the moment. The tears are @outlander

Sorry you are still not feeling good @Former-Member I know how much staying where you are is taking out of you. I really hope you hear from your landlord soon Hon - you need to know if you can get out of your lease and then begin the process of finding somewhere else to live. I do hope this all happens soon for you

I am tired. Fell asleep for a few hours @Zoe7

nothing yet it’s been ten days. Yeah I am drained and have too much going on in my head. Missing a few people I had in my life angry at some. I got a msg from my older brother today which made me cry just literally everywhere

I've been sleeping on and off most of today @Former-Member - the emotional turmoil going on in our heads has that effect

I am still struggling but trying to just get through until tomorrow and hope it is better - feeling very low today

Do you get on with your big brother?

Have you been out of the house today? @Zoe7 I haven’t for years to be honest. Lives up in qld with his own family.

No Hon - haven't been out of the house and don't feel like it @Former-Member

All I have wanted to do is sleep and after the meds I had last night it wasn't hard to do - very tired.

It is nice then that he has reached out to you - maybe this is a good thing for you

Understand @Zoe7 i feel like that is going to be us tomorrow. I had another lady reach out today at a petrol station doesn’t really know much about me but has seen me quite a bit with my daughter. She told me she’s been in a place where I am and got through it. I asked her how long it took and she said quite a while and told me I will get through it i just said yeah maybe and left 😓 I have felt so emotional all day. I am that lost it isn’t funny. Feel like so much of my spirit is gone and grieving just from that is really really hard to sit with most days

I so get where you are sitting with all that @Former-Member It feels like in the space of a day I have gone backwards about 100 steps and that is super hard to sit with

That woman today should show you though that there are people out there that get it and do want to connect with you - just as we do here Hon

It is so hard when you know what you want but can't seem to get there - and that is so tough on most days to deal with. We do have our good days but it feels like there are more bad days and they overtake any good their is in our lives. I am however grateful every dy for my fur babies for without them I would not be here at all - you have your daughter and one thing I do know about you is how much you love her - hold onto that Hon

I need to head off @Former-Member Will try to check in with you tomorrow Hon