My journey

Don't beat yourself up @Former-Member - sometimes we do what we can to forget stuff Hon. I know it is not ideal but feeling guilt will not change anything. Concentrate now on the night ahead and what you and your daughter can do together - maybe a little more packing.

I do get what you mean about not being seen - it is as if by being out amongst others we are putting ourselves in a position of risk - even though it is not necessarily the case it does feel like that in our own minds.

The insecurities that we have follow us everywhere - and that is a really tough place to be constantly living in @Former-Member - I hear you

That is really hard to deal with @Former-Member - but there are some things about you that I can see that you should be proud of - you are still looking forward to the move, you place your daughter at the top of your priority list, you continue to care for your daughter, you are working in a job with people that you don't particularly like but you are getting through each day, and you are connecting with me on here ...all of thise things are things that realIy like about you and you should be proud of Hon

Benzodiazepines are highly addictive but they can help with the type of anxiety you are having. If your GP is wise and able to get you on minimum dosage for the shortest period of time possible they might be able to help you with your current feelings.

@Former-Member I am pleased to hear that you are doing something to help yourself - I know you have been struggling and this is a positive step for you