My journey

I know that feeling well @Former-Member - sometimes the better things seem to be going the more I think something will happen - or worse - it does - and the fall then seems so much bigger. It is like the universe has lulled me into a false sense of security and then the bombshell hits!

I think we have higher expectations of ourselves because of how down we feel on ourselves @Former-Member and part of that is the feeling that we cannot live up to our own expectations let alone those of other people - so we get in this cycle of thinking the worst will happen because that is always the way it has been!

...but you are breaking out of that by moving and starting a 'new' life in a better area for you and your daughter - that is real progress Hon and a major step forward. Not long now until you move and that is probably causing you some underlying anxiety even though it is exciting as well... all of that hits you emotionally even when you cannot openly see it - be kind to yourself and let the happiness you are feeling happen

Treating yourself next week sounds like a great idea @Former-Member. You have been organising a lot for the move so some time just for yourself to relax and spoil yourself would be a great break for you

I went out last night - it was a good night - I handled it much better than I expected - I am very tired today but I have nothing planned so I can rest all day. Toby has taken over the doona on the couch so I won't be getting that back for some time today lol

Hope your day is filled with light and moments of joy

Sorry you have had a bad day 'parenting wise' @Former-Member but we can wish for tomorrow to be better for you

Yes Toby definitely rules the house but Cat is the boss lol She does her own thing and comes for cuddles when she wants to (mostly when she has been fed lol) They are both very important to me - pretty sure I would not still be here if I hadn't had them over the last couple of years!

Do you have any plans for the weekend? I don't have anything I need to do but will probably try to do a little housework and chill the rest of the time in front of sport on the tv - there are a couple of games I can watch over the weekend.