My journey

I actually just want to start living life again and not just survive @Zoe7

I am really pleased you are going to book yourself in next week @Former-Member that is being pro-active in helping ypurself.

I do get what you mean about having a home that isn't a home. It makes it really hard when you don't feel comfortable where you live. I can really see how much you need to move yet you do not have the resources yet to do that. Worrying about money is an added stress you don't need hon

I do get that wanting to live life and not just survive @Former-Member - I have been in that boat for a long time now and it is really difficult to be in that position

I just know this is not where I want to be @Zoe7 within myself. Really want to smash next year down with this courseand earn @Zoe7 beauty is long gone for me now

This course is something you really want to do so I have no doubt that you will smash it Hon. It will be a whole new beginning for you @Former-Member

I may move out of town again to the city.

I can’t see myself here in this place anymore. Honestly just want to let go of so many things @Zoe7 I always think about this

Everyone is moving on with their life and I want to as well @Zoe7 i feel so backwards it’s not even funny I can’t keep doing this, just getting by every fortnight expenses everywhere stressing myself sick over what I can or can’t afford. Sitting in this unit feeling sorry for myself lol, smoking like no tomorrow, wallowing. I think it’s all come out now

It definitely seems like a fresh start somewhere would be a good move for you @Former-Member It is going to be hard but you just need to get through the next couple of months and then decide if you want out of your lease in December. It really is a case of taking it a day at a time for now though Hon - that is all you can do and hopefully your GP can hel you with some added support.

I’ve done a lot of horrid things @Zoe7

Feel like I am sort of coming down at the same time. It’s so strange. Still hate myself and still hate but yeah. It’s not me staying home all the time without that sounding horrible. I am a worker... used to be really social... now 👎🏻 Feels good getting it out

I think I will just don’t know 100% to stay in town or go... literally went physcho

Hopefully this new course will occupy your time and get you into work that you enjoy @Former-Member

It doesn't matter what things you have done in the past - it is how you go about things now. I know that is extremely tough for you because you have said that you have hurt a lot of people but YOU are the one that can change that Hon by being a better person now.

You deserve a second chance and that may be in a completely new area where you don't have the same history.