catching up

Hi @Jacques Glad you are home safe and sound. I hope your mum is managing. Take care of her and you.

No problem my angel, i did not want you to worry, i have just finished doing some hedge trimming, the cool change has just come through, it is SOOOOO NICE!!!!!!! we have a few drops of water but i would not call it rain 😄

Oh no, i know how bad that is Karen, i get into such a state when i lose something, did you end up finding it? you poor thing, i know how bad it is, i had to go into shops, i was shaking so bad, i went numb and lost all sense of time and very confused, it is like my whole body shuts down.

hugs my angel, it is over now and you are home 🙂

thinking of you

Jacques

it is 32 here at the moment, so it is much better, we are ment to have 29 here tomorrow, so i am happy.

Mum is still feeling a bit unwell, she is still having stomach problems, but is slowely recovering.

Yes, i think i have had a bit to much on the past 4-5 days, just too overwhelming, i will be able to rest now until saturday hopefully.

I have not slept since early this morning, i am so exhausted, i could go to sleep standing up, my adrenaline is going so strong, i jjust hope i can settle down before bedtime.

Please don't worry Karen, you need to care for yourself, how are you going now? i hope you are having some time out tonight, some quality R&R if yo uwhere here i would give you a shoulder massage to relieve some of the tension, oh sorry i forgot you can't stand anyone touching you, uuuummm maybe some relaxing music?

thinking of you

Jacques

would you really? wow, i do feel special, that is a lot of trust you put in me, thank you so much, it means a lot.

Yes, my chest is aching too, i have been trying to take deep breaths, but my chst is just so tight. My muscles twitch all the time Karen, i have been scared that it is small signs of what my father died of, as it is one of the symptoms, but i keep telling myself it is just the anxiety making them twitch.

I know my angel, i know how tough it is, you just need some time out to recover.

I am trying to care for myself, but i don't want to speak to mum about any of it as i don't want her stressed, she knows i have really pushed myself this week, and is allowing me to recover.

Oh no my angel, why did you open it, you should have put it straight back in the envelope and taken it to the doctors, Karen, this is a diagnosis, not who you are, it is what your symptoms present as, whatever that piece of paper says i can tell you you are a loving mother, i kind person and the best friend a person can have, that is all you need to know, everything else is just small stuff.

my angel i wish i could comfort you.