JacquesSenior Contributor
catching up
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catching up
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JacquesSenior Contributor
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It is the same for me Karen, I can't believe how lucky I am to have you in my life, I feel like I have won the lottery.
Karen, you need to distract, you have your tiles arriving this morning, do you need to be their for the delivery? Can you take the girls out for morning tea or brunch at a cafe?
I am very low, I have a lot of pressure on me from other family members and mums friends to feed them information, I feel so uncomfortable, it would seem giving me so much anxiety, I am shaking too, please hold my hand tighter to stop the shaking.
My angel focus on you, I will be safe, I promise.
Gentle hugs my angel, we will get through this together 🙂
Karen, you need to distract, you have your tiles arriving this morning, do you need to be their for the delivery? Can you take the girls out for morning tea or brunch at a cafe?
I am very low, I have a lot of pressure on me from other family members and mums friends to feed them information, I feel so uncomfortable, it would seem giving me so much anxiety, I am shaking too, please hold my hand tighter to stop the shaking.
My angel focus on you, I will be safe, I promise.
Gentle hugs my angel, we will get through this together 🙂
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hiddeniteSenior Contributor
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You sure are stuck in the middle of everything. It's understandable that it causes you anxiety thats only natural.
my feelings grow stronger everyday jacques, you have such a special place in my heart. I never want to let you go.
we need to stay strong together forever.....
is there anything I can do to help you j?
I hope im not holding too tight it takes two of my hands to get around one of yours. You have such strong hands.
the tiles are being delivered tomorrow. Over 50 box's I hope the builder will help me carry them inside they are so heavy.
karen
my feelings grow stronger everyday jacques, you have such a special place in my heart. I never want to let you go.
we need to stay strong together forever.....
is there anything I can do to help you j?
I hope im not holding too tight it takes two of my hands to get around one of yours. You have such strong hands.
the tiles are being delivered tomorrow. Over 50 box's I hope the builder will help me carry them inside they are so heavy.
karen
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JacquesSenior Contributor
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I know Karen, I struggle with the pressure and what I can say, I can't lie, so I just hate being in the middle of this, mums health is getting worse, her diabetes is through the roof, she is mentioned to have a blood sugar level of 7, it is currently 19.
The rash will not go away and she keeps falling from the meds she has to take to keep her calm.
She is always on the verge of crying.
Karen, my feeling grow stronger for you too, I find it hard to express how big the crush I have on you is. I feel so lucky and feel so cared for and loved with you.
Yes my angel, we need to draw strength from each other. Together we can do this.
Not much you can do my angel, it is just what it is, I just need to deal with it and try to keep safe.
Oh my angel, you hold on as tight as you need, you help stop my shaking too, I am shaking so bad.
Oh gosh, yes tomorrow, I keep forgetting dates, sorry, Karen do you have a trolley you can use to carry them? They are cheap at bunnings, it might be worth investing in one.
Karen, I hope you know how much you mean to me, you keep me safe, you are one of only two reasons I am alive. I love you so much.
Jacques
The rash will not go away and she keeps falling from the meds she has to take to keep her calm.
She is always on the verge of crying.
Karen, my feeling grow stronger for you too, I find it hard to express how big the crush I have on you is. I feel so lucky and feel so cared for and loved with you.
Yes my angel, we need to draw strength from each other. Together we can do this.
Not much you can do my angel, it is just what it is, I just need to deal with it and try to keep safe.
Oh my angel, you hold on as tight as you need, you help stop my shaking too, I am shaking so bad.
Oh gosh, yes tomorrow, I keep forgetting dates, sorry, Karen do you have a trolley you can use to carry them? They are cheap at bunnings, it might be worth investing in one.
Karen, I hope you know how much you mean to me, you keep me safe, you are one of only two reasons I am alive. I love you so much.
Jacques
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hiddeniteSenior Contributor
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Oh jacques that really isn't good for your mum to have blood sugar levels that high. I'm sorry she is suffering so much. It must be so difficult to watch her suffer like this.
Im glad I am a reason for you to stay safeI'm only too happy to help.
I have one of those trolleys its just the builder arranged for a skip to be dropped off. They put it so close to the front stairs that the trolly won't fit past.
good idea though j thanks.
I hope you don't mind me bothering you so much. Its just so awesome to be able to talk to you.
Im glad I am a reason for you to stay safeI'm only too happy to help.
I have one of those trolleys its just the builder arranged for a skip to be dropped off. They put it so close to the front stairs that the trolly won't fit past.
good idea though j thanks.
I hope you don't mind me bothering you so much. Its just so awesome to be able to talk to you.
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JacquesSenior Contributor
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I know, mum can go into a diabetic coma at level 25, i am so scared for her, Their is nothing i can do to help her, my aunt is doing silly things then comming back here and telling mum to upset her. i just don't know what to do.
Karen, i love you and i am scared for your safety if i let go, the girls need you, i just want you to be safe, if that means i have to live then so be it, i would do that for you.
Karen, can't you take them through the back door of your house? i know how heavy they are, i have 20 boxes waiting for the new kitchen, i had to pack them in the shed, i found it hard to move them, so i don't know how you do it, you must be so strong.
I wish i could be their to help you with the heavy lifting Karen, i could do all of that for you if i was their, you could just give me a cup of coffee once in a while 😄
Karen, i love talking to you, we have not had a chance to spend much time together this week. i cherrish any time i can spend with you.
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hiddeniteSenior Contributor
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I agree I've been missing talking to you. I am so exhausted by the time the girls go to bed that I fall asleep .
still struggling so much with fatigue some days I just can't get going.
I would love you to be a part of renovating my house I sure could use your strenth and experience.
The old kitchen they dumped half in the lounge room the rest is on the back deck so I can't get to the back door. The place is a mess they left the old bath up against a wall in the dining room. I just hope they haven't damaged the flooring because I don't want to have to replace it.
I really hope your aunt finds somewhere else to live really soon
still struggling so much with fatigue some days I just can't get going.
I would love you to be a part of renovating my house I sure could use your strenth and experience.
The old kitchen they dumped half in the lounge room the rest is on the back deck so I can't get to the back door. The place is a mess they left the old bath up against a wall in the dining room. I just hope they haven't damaged the flooring because I don't want to have to replace it.
I really hope your aunt finds somewhere else to live really soon
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JacquesSenior Contributor
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I totally understand Karen, your girls should always come first, i come a distand second, you need to pour all your love and care into them, you need to make sure they grow up to be well adjusted and smart women.
I do know how much you miss me, like i miss you.
I know how bad the fatigue gets, i am sleeping now most of the day, and panicing of a night, it is the depression for me, and for you so many responsabilities, you have the girls, the house your mum, you have a very stressful life Karen, i would break under the strain you carry, you are such an inspiration to me.
Oh Karen, i dont know about experiance, but i would love to help with the heavy lifting, i am strong.
My angel, please make sure if they damage anything they fix it, it is not fair for them to dump the stuff everywhere, you are paying them to renovate. please make sure they do what they are being payed for.
Gosh Karen, sounds like a disaster their, i hope they get it finished quickly so you can see the end result. you are such a brave woman Karen for taking all this on, i don't know too many single mums who can juggle so much.
I hope she does too, but i don't think she will be leaving anytime soon.
Gosh Karen, the morning is almost over, how are you coping now?
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hiddeniteSenior Contributor
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The anxiety is getting worse how are you jacques.
thank you for helping me get through the morning.
its still raining hear its very heavy.
I hope they don't damage too much its getting so close to being finished just a really good clean and a coat of paint. The outside stuff can wait till later. Still have gutters and paint and replace the boards they took off to re stump.
Hope you get to rest this afternoon.
thinking of you
karen
thank you for helping me get through the morning.
its still raining hear its very heavy.
I hope they don't damage too much its getting so close to being finished just a really good clean and a coat of paint. The outside stuff can wait till later. Still have gutters and paint and replace the boards they took off to re stump.
Hope you get to rest this afternoon.
thinking of you
karen
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JacquesSenior Contributor
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I am ok Karen, i lit some sandlewood inscense for us, it was so nice.
Please Karen, let me help you through to your appointment, i know how scared you must be, you are being so brave, just hold on, i will hold you hand and get you through this.
Oh gosh Karen, please be careful on the roads, make sure you take off a bit earlier so you can take it easier on the highway.
Oh gosh Karen, i am so excited for you, you must feel a real scense of achievement, i am so so proud of you, i wish i could see photos, but i suppose the moderators would not allow it because it would identify you, gosh i wish we could share more than we do.
I am going to stay awake for you Karen, you need support and i want to support you. i will stay up as long as i can.
hugs my angel, everything will be alright, miss you
Jacques xxx
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hiddeniteSenior Contributor
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Thanks jacques ive been getting ready to go. I've got in a purple colored dress on with flowers printed on it. Black stockings black cardigan and my best pair of black boots.
I've got my make up on. I wear it every day its my mask.
and ive done my hair.
just need to slow the breathing down
I've got my make up on. I wear it every day its my mask.
and ive done my hair.
just need to slow the breathing down
