JacquesSenior Contributor
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catching up
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hiddeniteSenior Contributor
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Jacques I don't believe a word that you say. You have only ever shown me how beautiful you are . It makes me sad knowing that you loathe yourself. You must be able to see how kind you are. I wouldn't be here if it wasn't for you. Please jacques stay with me. I miss you so much.
karen
karen
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NikNikSenior Contributor
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Hi @Jacques
I'm so sorry to hear you've been having such a difficult time lately.
For anyone whose space has been invaded, it's really tough - I don't think many people like others staying in their space for too long, I know I don't. It's your home - your sanctuary. It's completely understandable that you feel the pressure that you're feeling at the moment.
This doesn't make you a bad person - you're no where near on the same scale as anyone you described. That is a fact - not an opinion.
Please be kinder to yourself and know that it is tough for any "average joe" to give up their space and not have privacy.
I'm about to drop you an email to check in. Please take care.
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JacquesSenior Contributor
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Karen I told my aunt I wish humans where not on earth anymore, just animals, and the horrible things I would do to anyone who broke into my home, I hate so much hate in me, you are the only one I care about in the world, I just don't belong, I have such different views from everyone else.
I am not the person you think I am, I fear I have deceived you, please forgive me.
I am not the person you think I am, I fear I have deceived you, please forgive me.
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hiddeniteSenior Contributor
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Jacques they are just thoughts you are not your thoughts. You do not have to act on them.
there are a lot of people who think you are wirth something we can't all be wrong. We all have a story to tell. Our own demons to battle. But we do we get up everyday even when we don't want to and fight.
mmum put a box in my room which has all my wedding photos and 24 years worth of photos with my husband. Im so drawn to it but it will destroy me to look at it. Not in this room it takes my dignity I have none. I see that I deserved it for not fighting back just allowing it to happen . If I made him happy he would never had hurt me.
see we are so similar if I was a good person I would not have been treated the way I have.
jacques please stay safe
there are a lot of people who think you are wirth something we can't all be wrong. We all have a story to tell. Our own demons to battle. But we do we get up everyday even when we don't want to and fight.
mmum put a box in my room which has all my wedding photos and 24 years worth of photos with my husband. Im so drawn to it but it will destroy me to look at it. Not in this room it takes my dignity I have none. I see that I deserved it for not fighting back just allowing it to happen . If I made him happy he would never had hurt me.
see we are so similar if I was a good person I would not have been treated the way I have.
jacques please stay safe
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JacquesSenior Contributor
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Karen you did nothing to be treated the way you where treated, you know deep down trying to stop him would have made things worse.
I am sorry Karen, I am bringing you down, I do this to everyone I know, I have so much negativity flowing through me I worry it affects others.
Karen, I am sorry I never told you what I am really like, I was trying to start my life anew on these forums, but outside forces have destroyed me again, I am just and angry hateful, immature boy in a man's body, I can't even leave mums side, I am pathetic useless.
Sorry Karen, I have destroyed your view of me, but it is who I will always be.
I am sorry Karen, I am bringing you down, I do this to everyone I know, I have so much negativity flowing through me I worry it affects others.
Karen, I am sorry I never told you what I am really like, I was trying to start my life anew on these forums, but outside forces have destroyed me again, I am just and angry hateful, immature boy in a man's body, I can't even leave mums side, I am pathetic useless.
Sorry Karen, I have destroyed your view of me, but it is who I will always be.
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hiddeniteSenior Contributor
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Jacques if you knew the real me I would be afraid that you would never talk to me.
please jacques your feelings are understandable your aunty is making your mum sick and triggering you and making you unwell too.
you are not used to having someone in your home please jacques you are under so much pressure.
Take care
karen
please jacques your feelings are understandable your aunty is making your mum sick and triggering you and making you unwell too.
you are not used to having someone in your home please jacques you are under so much pressure.
Take care
karen
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hiddeniteSenior Contributor
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Jacques please don't shut me out.
I care about you unconditionally
I care about you unconditionally
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JacquesSenior Contributor
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Karen, i hate doing this to you all the time, i don't want you to know the real me, i want you to love the fantacy i make, i want you to feel loved and cared for, i wish i could do that for you, it breaks my heart to tell you all these aweful things i think every day, i just don't want to hurt you. i am a horrible person, you deserve so much better than me, you deserve unconditional kindness and love, i hope you find that with your girls.
you know i am safe, i can't go anywhere because mum still needs me, i just don't want to hurt the person i love.
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hiddeniteSenior Contributor
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Jacques all the times you have been there for me the kindness you have shown that sort of stuff can't be pretended. Holding my hand when I needed a friend. Supporting me through appointments and not giving up on me even when I had. This is the jacques I know. J you even hold hope for me when im all out.
I'm sorry you feel this way
Karen
I'm sorry you feel this way
Karen
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JacquesSenior Contributor
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I just care for you so much, you are the first woman i have loved, you are the only perosn who cares about me, i wish i could be here for you.
What are you up to tonight? did your mum put the photo's in your room? didn't she do that last time?
Karen, i am so sorry if i have upset you, i am crying telling you all this, it is breaking my heart to tell you.
