catching up

Yes mum put the photos in my room. I don't understand why.

Jacques im sorry you are crying at least its a healthy out let. I would love to be able to sit with you and tell you everything is going to be ok.
We don't have to say anything just being with one another is ok.
Jacques you know bad things about me. How many times ive been in the mhu the attempts ive made and every time you've stood by me.

I wish she would stop that, surly she knows how distressed you are about that place, I am sorry she is so mean to you.

Karen, you are all I care about in life now, you are so special to me, if you ever feel hurt by me promise me you will walk away from me, please

Karen you are a special woman, a fantastic mother and I feel so honored you chose to be my friend, my love.

My angel it has been so easy to stand by you, you are so deserving of it, I wish I could show you a life of no fear and happiness. You have experienced to much hurt in your life..

Karen, thank you for sitting with me, I am calming now, you can always help me slow my breathing and make me think only of you.

Thank you

You are the man I chose to stand beside. To tell my inner most secrets to. You have stood by me. You are not a monster Jacques you are a generous man put in a very awkward position when your aunt moved in.
we both battle the darkness of our minds our thoughts that we never tell. Jacques I get them too.
does that make me a bad person too? I must be a monster too j

Karen you are a beautiful person a loving mother a wonderful friend and the love of my life, you are not a monster, horrible things have happened to you that never should have happened.

I wish my touch and kind words could take away all your pain..

You deserve to be loved, cared for and never be hurt again that Is what I am frightened of, hurting you.

I'm glad you are feeling a bit calmer j you've have had a very tough time. I wish I knew how to take your pain away. Would you like to sit for a while I am cold and could use a warm cuddly hug.
Im not scared of you Jacques I know the real you. And that is who I love.

I am holding my phone to my chest I want you close to me, that is all I can think to do.

I would really love a cuddle, please my angel, tell me how you are, I feel so terrible for taking up you time and emotional strength. I am holding you so close, cuddling close looking into your beautiful blue eyes.

You are such a special lady Karen, I hope you see that.

Jacques you are worth every ounce of my energy. With you by my side I can get through anything.
I care that you are hurting so much I would do anything to take your pain away.

thankyou for letting me sit with you. I hope my warmth is keeping you warm too.
I can hear your heart beating and I know everything is going to be ok

My angel I can feel your warmth, you are just amazing, I wish we could have had a fun night tonight, I really want to hear that you are smiling, it is so nice to hear you speaking of being able to get through anything, wow, you are such a strong and brave woman, hugs and kisses my angel, you are one in a million 🙂

My angel I am using all my techniques, I hope you are too, I am right beside you holing you hand, you have nothing to be afraid of, let me protect you.