catching up

OMG Karen that is so funny, we seem to have the same thoughts, i am so glad you did that, surely the pressure washing and the mortiene will do the job, the poor little spidie will have to find a new home.

Kare nthe dark stuff is so bad because you are voer commiting, you do so much each day that your body is physically exhausted, which in turn does not allow you to fight the dark stuff, you really need to find a way to slow things down a bit, i do know it is hard with 2 little ones, but you need to try.

As i have said before, try to limit each day to 1 appointment, spread everything out over the week. I know you are trying hard, and maybe you might need to sacrifice some appointments to make this happen, you are a smart woman Karen, i know you will figure it out.

The bike, some good news, your solution has worked, i put the Jar underneath the screw and allowed some of the oil to come out, i do hope i have done it right, i am worried and i will not know until i can start it, which could be months, so fingers crossed. The bike seems to turn over easier since i have rebuilt it, so that has to be a good omen.

OMG Karen i have lost a maragold, 11 have survived, but 1 died, i don't know why, but i suppose 1 is not too bad, i have had to water a lot though. and the Karen Garden is blooming like you would not believe, i will post a photo tomorrow.

Karen with the MHU, the choice is yours, you know if you are coping or not, all i will say is if you are well you will be in a better position to make sure the girls have all they need from you. Emotionally and physically. Karen the choice is yours, i know it is a tough decision, and i know it will affect everyone, but in the end, better you getting help than not being here. The girls need their mum.

I hope you are ok me angel, i am worried, you said you where struggling tonight, please be kind to yourself, you have done so well this week, please be proud of the fact that you have achieved so much.

I am so proud of you Karen, big hugs, be safe

Jacques

No Karen, i think the pond will be another year away, we still have to redo the kitchen which is going to cost a lot of money, so we are working in priority, we where hoping to do it this year, but it was nto to be.

I really hope the appointments slow down after christmas, you need some rest. Karen you can't be serious, Phillip Island again, Karen you can't traumatize yourself like this, surly their is other beaches you can go to? If you do decide to go, can you at least rent a cabin? please don't go back to that place, it is too much.

I will Karen, i have a small leak around one of the seals, so i have ordered some new bolts.

Karen, just give it some time to sink in, you don't have to make the decision tonight, and maybe speak to your family to see if they can help out a little, i know it will be very hard on the girls, but it would be harder on them if you harmed yourself. try to keep that in mind. better a few weeks without you than being without you forever.

Oh Karen, if you are paying big money to get this done, please make sure they do it right. you can still change your mind, tell them tomorrow you have spoken to some experts and they have advised you to do it the right way. Karen it is your money, remember that, you are paying them to do a job, if you know you will not be happy with it, please tell them either do it the right way or you will get someone else.

karen i am always willing to give my best friend a hug, especially when she needs it most.

Karen please be carful, i have heard it makes the anxiety 10X worse, please speak to your doctor if you decide to do it, i know for myself i will be taking medication for the rest of my life, i have accepted i need medication just to be on earth, i can't cope with the world without medication.

please be careful Karen, i really worry about you now, let alone without your meds

Oh Karen, please don't tell me how much, i feel like you are telling me too much, but that is a lot of money so please make sure you get it done properly.

I know the girls love it their, but you really need to find a way of getting them to the beach without all the negative memories.

your friend sounds like a smart person, see i told you you have some good friends, i hope i meet this person one day. they sound wonderful.

Good for you Karen, it is good to try and make positives out of what was a horrible time. the key is to try to minimise the bad memories, can you use another room in the house instead of the one he attacked you in?