catching up

Karen, it is so hard for us to see the good in ourselves, it sometimes takes others to point out the good, even if we don't see it, others can, please take my word for it you are a good mum.

Karen, you mean so much to me, you are my whole world, you are all i think about all the time, from the moment i wake till the moment i go to sleep, i worry smile and think of you. Karen, i have never felt this cllose to another person, i have never had a friendship last this long, i am in unknown territory, i am still scared you will leave me or i wil lsay something stupid to make you hate me.

You are such an important part of my life and my well being. thank you my friend.

Karen what are your plans to distract tomorrow? i know you have somme things to do, but what are you going to do to distract till 4:30?

Karen who will not allow you to drive the girls to school? you are not worthless, everyone is just concerned about your wellbeing, Karen, try not to take it personally, it is just until the people can make sure you will be safe and not do anything silly.

They don't know you like i do, i know you only have love for your girls.

Karen, i wish i lived close to you too, i wish we could go for coffees and lunches together, or to the park or zoo, it would be nice to have a friend in real life.

Karen, i will try to stay safe, you please do the same.

Karen, what can we do together tomorrow to keep you distracted? have a think about it, maybe you could go and get some more stuff for the house? or get some nice things to make yourself feel pretty and pampered?

Hey can you go along with whomever is taking the girls to school?

My princess you are so sweet and compassionate. thank you for just being you. i so wish i could pamper you Karen, you deserve so much attention and kindness. i wish i could make you feel special.

I know my angel, i know, it is a tough situation, and i really feel for you, you did protect them from their father, you did everything to keep them safe.

Karen maybe this is a chance to work really hard at getting yourself better, you have been under stress for so long, you have tried to manage things on your own, at the cost of your mental health and well being, you are not a bad mum but if you can get yourself to a state where you can be safe, not only would you benefit but the girls would have their happy mum back.

Karen, i don't manage stress at all, i am like you in that respect, will your mum be the custodian of the girls? would it be a temporary measure until you get better? Karen, please wait until tomorrow see what they have to say, then work through what needs to be done.

Karen, first and foremost you need to be safe, you need to get better. it is not good for you or the girls when your MH suffers like it has, you pour all your energy into the girls at the expense of your own Mental health. you know deep down it can't go on like that, see this as a chance to get your mind sorted so you can be the best mum you can possably be 🙂

karen, i will be with you every step of this journey, don't see this as a set back, see this as an opportunity to make your family whole again.

Karen, that is why it is so important not to think about these events before they happen, it is in these times the mind can be our worst enemy, we think up all the worst case senarios without warrant, rarly do these events come close to what our minds make them out to be.

Karen, they are trainned professionals, they will know how to talk to the girls, to make them feel comfortable, i know from what you have told me about the girls, that they love you very much, i am sure when they are speaking ot the people that will come through in their answers.

Karen, you will not be alone tomorrow, i will be here for you, any time, you have support, if you feel like you are struggling or just want to vent or have a shoulder to lean on, post here and i will be here for you. 🙂

how is your breathing my friend, are you taking deep breaths? are you still shaking?