catching up

Haha, yes my angel, i feel the same, i really noticed this time i was so lost without you, it was like when we had no contact last time, i was totally out of it, i did not know what to do with my day without you.

Yes me too my angel, it is so nice to have a friend i can trust with anything, you are my whole world.

Today, well i just finished putting up the photos after painting the hallway, all i need to do is paint the door frames gloss white. then i trimmed the edges of the garden, cleanid up all my tools, painting stuff and mowing stuff, and i used the blower to clean all the pathways, i am buggered now, so i am sitting at my computer and doing some paperwork. Oh yes my angel, i was nearly burnt to a crisp while trimming, i am so happy to be in the AC, i have the fan on too 🙂 all the animals at the farm are sleeping under trees, they are having a quiet day 🙂

Yes my angel ,that is a good idea, keep busy, i know you don't want to go back, i know you are scared, but your safety is number 1, you need somewhere to keep safe, i will be here for you every day Karen, no matter where you are, i will be here 🙂

Thinking of you too my angel, hugs to you my friend.

Jacques

Yes my angel, thank you, no we only lost 6 plants out of over 35, so i am really pleased, i am not supprised they died after we got 3 consecutive days of over 40 degrees, it was just too hot for them.

No we have had to put back getting the lawn mower, we have had a huge influx of bills, plumber phone, internet, rates, etc all at once, so everything is on hold till we catch up.

Oh my angel, you could never take up too muc htime, you are my best friend, you mean the world to me, no amount of time is enough with you 🙂

Yes, i am getting really tired, so i will try to get some sleep at about 1pm, try to catch up. i know you will be holding my hand and keeping me safe, so i think i will sleep well.

what are you and the girls up to today? is it hot in Melbourne? do you have any new plans for the house?

Mum and i are going ot paint her room next, it is a real bugger because someone has wallpapered the room and painted over it, so it has bubbled so i am going to have to strip the wallpaper, my first time doing it. i hope it goes ok.

Hugs

OMG Karen, is it? thank goodness it is only in one room, i do hope they have come up with a way to remove it fast.

Thankyou my angel, but i did not sleep well, more panic attacks, but i am thankful for last night, so i will take the few hours of sleep i got this afternoon.

OMG Karen, you lucky duck, 25 i only wish, i will not see those temps for another 4-5 weeks. Oh the poor little things, are they scared? try to show them you love them Karen, hug them, tell them you love them, play games with them, have fun with them.

Oh gosh Karen, that is great news. can you get the rest of the stuff on Monday? Oh the MHU, well do you have to tell him? can't you just say you might have to go away for a week or two? you don't have to tell him details.

Anyway it is your choice, maybe tell him in 3 weeks time as you have to go away for a few weeks? it is such a shame, i was so hopeing he could get started ASAP. never mind, it will get done in time.

hugs my angel, i hope you are well this afternoon. thinking of you my princess.

Jacques

Oh my angel, just tell him it is something private, he does not need to know why, Oh well it is probably good news, to give you some time to get the rest of it. try not to be so hard on yourself, their is still plenty of time, and i am sure once thye start it will all go in pretty quickly.

Well Karen, ECT, it can give you long and short term memory loss, and that it is nothing like what is shown on TV, i don't know if you have read much about it.

Karen i have found a short Documentary about what they do now, please watch it, i will try to get some more information for you, please give me till tonight and i will sort it for you.

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=9L2-B-aluCE

Karen my princess, i am going to wash the car now, so i will be back on at 7pm, please forgive me, i will keep my phone with me, so if you want to chat i can send a little message.

hugs my angel, please consider it, i know ECT is scary but if it helps the depression, it is well worth it, maybe with the memory loss you may lose the memories of the abuse too, something to think about.

Whatever you decision Karen, i will support you, i will never judge you, just take your time, learn as much as possible and keep an open mind.

Jacques

6 out of 35 is good odds .. you seemed to take the loss of plants personally @Jacques. There are so many factors in the garden.

@hiddenite I have a giant hole where my defective oven used to be ... step by step to being able to have roasts.

People make different choices ... about ECT ... my mother said she was glad she had it .. but never had medications ... @Former-Member has had some experience and wants to avoid it. It is a bit of a gamble ...

It is your choice ... but sometimes I really hate making choices so I limit my contact with outside world and stay in bed ... and that is just one little choice ... and I can live with that.

Do a bit of research .. if we hand all our personal agency over to others we may regret it ... but you alone know what you have to manage day by day. Often tradies can be very understanding people .. but you can be private too.

Good Luck both of you.