catching up

I Wish Karen, no the cheese cake is store bought, but i am making everything else myself 🙂 because of mum's health problems i could not make a whole cheese cake, so we just have two slices.

I would love nothing more than to cook for you Karen, you would have cakes mains whatever you wanted. i would love to bake you a cake one day, maybe one day i will 🙂

Bahahahahaha, clean cook, no way, their is always a mess from one end of the kitchen to the other. i use every pot, pan and utensil available, but i do clean up after myself, so that has to be a plus 😄

Karen, i meant mirror metaphorically, we need to look inside ourselves. Karen, sometimes i believe it and sometimes i don't, it is somethign that needs to be practiced every day. don't see it as a failure if you can't think of anything nice to say, see it as a challenge, as something to rebel against, you have a strong stubborn streak, use it for good Karen, i have an unusual ability to rebel against everything. maybe that is why i am not accepted and why i get myself into trouble.

We all need to work on self care and self love. i do not profess to have mastered it, i am tough on myself as you have read in many of my posts. but they do not define me. they do not define you.

Oh Karen, no, please let me cook in your kitchen, i will promise to be tidy 🙂 yes hairdressing i am very tidy, with cooking i have a phobia about using the same thing twice, having OCD i am obsessive about germs. that is why i wash my hands so much too. i hate mess that is why i clean u straight away but i hate germs more. if that makes any sense.

hugs my princess, you are sounding better today, you are more talkative. it is so nice to spend some quality time with you my friend. i miss these times with you 🙂

Ok Karen, hear you go i promise one day to make you one chocolate Eclair, hows that 🙂 i make them so well too, well i used to, but i am sure i still can. one day Karen, i promise.

Their you are my angel, an actual photo of my meal before i ate it 😄 i hope you enjoy my friend.

Yes i get it KAren, i have to have all the spoons and tea spoons all facing the same way and all facing down, i fiddle wit hthem for ages to get them just right, silly kjust for a cup of coffee, but i suppose OCD is not rational?

Karen, you are not a dumb blond, and you are just as intellegent as me, you learn so fast, i find it incredable, the way you pick thengs up on the computer is amazing, you pick it up way faster than i did when i was young.

Anyway i do hope you find a way to love yourself again, i have only known you a short while, and in that time i have come to care for you deeply. you have an aura about you Karen, something special.

just give everything time Karen, i have been on my own journey for so long, have i wanted to give up along the way? sure i have, but i have not, and you know what neither have you. i am proud of you my friend.