catching up

Oh Karen, sorry i didn't mean i didn't want to chat, i am here if you want to talk, i am just watching it inbetween the messages, please Karen, keep talking, i really miss you, i cherrish any time we get to speak.

What are you doing tonight? besides talking wiht our best friend Escape to the country is on now, mum is watching it.

Kare ni am always thinking of you, i even lit another insense stick and thought of you the whole time, i think of you now when ever i smell sandlewood.

Yes you are right, every now and again i get a strong smell of it going through the house, it is so nice, even mum likes it.

Oh yes, mum watches it every week, their are some really nice homes in it.

Oh My angel, no teddy, how about a pillow, or a rolled up blanket? I will give you a hug my angel, any time, i am just like a plush teddy bear 😄

i was watching my neighbour this afternoon giving the magpie some mince, their is now a cookuburra getting in on the action, they all arive right on 5pm readdy for dinner, they allow my neighbours to hand feed them now. it is so beautiful.

their is some good in the world, just not enough for me.

Karen you never wast my time, you are special to me, i know you are low.

Karen things will improve over time, you need to just hold onto hope, i know it is hard, i find it difficult myself, but it is all we have.

Please remember their are always advances in treatment, never forget that, it is always evolving and expanding.

Karen i always miss you, you are my friend and i care for you deeply i only want you to be happy, and to enjoy life again, it is possible, even if it is just happy moments. we need to just remember the good times.

Karen my good times are time spent with you, and time in the garden, what are yours?

Karen i will hold your hand tonight, you will not be alone, don't allow him to win, you are safe, he can't hurt you anymore.

I will try Karen, like you i struggle of a night.

You are right my angel, tomorrow is a new day.

Please promise me you will call life line or suicide callback service if you are feeling overwhelmed tonight?

If you don't mind also please let me know you are safe in the morning. i always worry about you my friend. i care for you so much.

Good night my angel

Jacques

What about talking to me? that is a good memory.

Your daughters, a good memory?

The ducklings at your house?

Your new hair do?