catching up

thank you my angel, i feel so bad sleeping, but i am so tired.

please stay in your room today with the girls, stay as far away from your mother as possible, she will only make things worse, you know she is an abuser, her words hurt i know, but she is ignorant and biggited.

please be safe, i hope you manage some rest, i will send am essage the second i wake.

hugs my angel, you are in my heart always.

Jacques

Hi my angel,

I am back, i hope you mum is backing off a bit, and i hope you managed a little rest.

hugs my angel, it is bucketing down here, lashing rain, i can almost have a shower from the leaks 😄

well at least it is only 1 room.

hugs my angel, my princess, my friend.

Jacques

Yes my angel, you are sure right about that, one of mum's friends said i should take off all the tiles and put tin down? I am thinking he is right.

Yes, the rain has just started here, about 30 min ago, all the garden is watered so i am happy about that.

Karen, you mother is a bully, i wish you could tell her to back off, you are not worthless or pathetic, you did all the right things yesterday, and i am sure everyone on here would agree, you asked for help in your hour of need and you got some help.

You little ones are just scared Karen, you mother is not helping things, is their any way of avoiding her? you are paying such huge rent their Karen, you should be able to get peace.

i wish i could be their to help you Karen, i feel so helpless from here. i wish you could just get a break and people could treat you with the respect you deserve. even if ony for a while.

hugs my angel, i am on now so if you want chat away, your prince awaits 😄

Hi My angel,

Yes you are right about the tiles, their is so many gaps in each tile, it would be so much easier just putting tin down, will look at it later this year. gosh still so much to do, and not much time to do it in.

Karen, you might need to tell her to back off, i can't believe how horrible she is, their is no way my mother would do that to me, i can't understand what she wants Karen, is she trying to make you sick or what?

Oh the poor little thing, can you take them out for dinner or something, maybe just the three of you at Maccas or something to get a break from the house?

Karen, one thing i have learned you can't make everyone happy, if someone wants to be nasty, they will find a way, you need to surround yourself with positive people.

Karen, i can tell you the Police man was right, but i can tell you another thing, they fad in time, my flashbacks where so real, now when i get them i am starting to lose the sensations that went with the flashbacks, the sights, smells and it is starting to blur, starting to fade.

Karen, please stay strong, you are doing so well, be kind to yourself.

Hugs my angel, i wish i was their.

Jacques

Karen you are fighting for the fact that PTSD treatment is advancing all the time, one day their will be a way to remove the flash backs, the Vetrens Affairs are working on PTSD treatments, and are making some major breakthroughs and advances in treatment.

Karen, they will fade over time and treatments will be available in the future, you just need to hold hope.

I will send you some articles to read when you want, mum's friend is an RSL president and he keeps up with all the PTSD for returned service men, he said many of them are getting treatments now that have made a big difference.

OK Karen, i know you are low, i know your family are not helping.

Karen if you don't hold onto hope, how will we ever meet 🙂 i will miss our chats, i will miss you Karen.

Karen, you only deserve kindess and love, i hope i can hlep out with the kindness 😄

Karen i am posting an article, please don't get excited, this is only experimental, but if it works this will be the new treatment for PTSD, this is just one of hundreds of experimental treatment going on right now 🙂

https://www.washingtonpost.com/lifestyle/style/brain-zapping-veterans-say-experimental-ptsd-treatment-has-changed-their-lives/2015/01/12/2fc8b3ca-58aa-11e4-8264-deed989ae9a2_story.html

Please hold onto hope Karen, you deserve love and kindess and their will be treatments in the future, you just need to hold onto hope 😄