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Good morning @Bow I hope your day goes well.

@Zoe7 @Anastasia wishing you both a good day too 💖💖

Thank you @Snowie you too hun x

Good morning @Snowie A very slow start here despite good intentions - fell asleep on the couch and whilst that is good to catch up on some sleep it means I have not done anything yet Still very tired and not feeling too well - think the last week is catching up on me so it will be slowly, slowly today. How are you feeling today Hon?

You must of needed the sleep hon @Zoe7

Your last week has been so full on sweetie with so much going on. It is no wonder you are tired and not feeling well. I am glad you have a few more days off to try and catch up on sleep and everything else.

My day has been a slow start too. S and D start back at school tomorrow so I need to go up the street to get some things for their lunches. I just have to try and find the motivation and energy to do so.

My thoughts are not good today. H went out with some friends this morning so I didn't want to say anything to him or he wouldn't have gone. He needs a break from me, I need a break from me. I have access to some prn so have taken them in the hope that they will help.

I am just over feeling like this. All I seem to do is complain. I can't cope with me anymore.

'Complain' away Hon - highlighting that because I do not see it as complaining at all - it is sharing and you have every right to share how you are feeling @Snowie - and I (and others) are definitely listening - and here for you

I am glad you have had some prn to help and also that you have a day away from H - we do sometimes need that space and it is actually healthy to know and understand that 👍

Do what you need to do for the kids' return to school and then spoil yourself today Snowie

Thanks for listening @Zoe7

I think H needed the day away. He does so much for me and the kids that he deserves that time off from us.

I just wish I wasn't like this and feel so guilty for thinking the way I do. But the more I try and not have those thoughts, the stronger they seem to get.

I hope the rest of your day goes ok for you too hon, and you get done what you need too. Hopefully you can have some time to yourself this afternoon. That might be hard with Cat, Tobes and squishy face around but I am sure they will give you some lovin!!

Squishy face has been snuggled into me for the last few minutes - getting pats and kisses and biting/locking my fingers at the same time.She is now snuggled next to me with Tobes asleep on his doona right beside us (squishy face is playing with his tail though so not sure how long that will last lol) 😺🐶💕

More than happy to be here with you and listen @Snowie It is one of those catch 22 things Hon - the more we try to put things out of our minds, often the stronger they are present and the cycle gets worse. Sometimes we actually need to address what we are thinking - acknowledge that pain, acknowledge it is real and valid and then do something nice for ourselves. In that way it does not continue to snowball to the extreme levels. If talking here helps then I am listening

I love hearing about the antics of aquishy face. She sounds like such a bundle of joy @Zoe7

Tobes certainly has patience for her!!

You are right, talking about things does help and does serve a purpose. Yet it is so hard to open up and talk about them. I think I try and hide everything from everyone around me so they will not worry.

I have H coming to my next pdoc appointment with me becasue I know he is concerned about my mh at the moment. Can't say I blame him after some of the things I have been doing.

I do know how hard it is to talk about things Hon but you are doing a great job already today and I hope it is helping just a little You and @Anastasia were absolutely wonderful to me yesterday - you may not have realised it but having you both around to both bounce things off and share actually made the day a really enjoyable one for me - so whilst you both may not have realised it - you both made such a difference. That is what I was talking about with acknowledging things - I could do that and then (luckily) I had sport to distract me further - it certainly helped having the wins but it really was you two that helped the most.

yes it is lovely that we can support and be here for each other @Zoe7 , @Snowie , @Anastasia