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Sitting with you @Snowie 🤗💕

Glad you can see your new psych tomorrow.

Very anxious about seeing her. Have thought of cancelling numerous times. Now I just need to try and keep it together till then.

Hi @Snowie ... firstly I'm happy to hear that your new psych apt has been brought forward to tomorrow. Its totally understandable to be anxious and very nervous in anticipation of talking to a new MH professional. To be able to open up to someone ... and discuss some of our most upsetting innermost thoughts, feelings and memories ... is one of the most difficult things for any of us to do. To be able to trust someone with our thoughts and our secrets. Much of which we have never told another soul. I dont think they realise just how hard that is for us to do. How could they?

I wish I could say that you will soon know if this new psych is a good fit for you or not. But the likelihood is that you wont know for sure at your first session. It takes time to develop trust, repoire and understanding between a client and a therapist. And thats why its so devastating when we lose a long standing therapist. I guess the important thing for tomorrow is that you feel comfortable in her presence and that she truly listens to you. The rest of what is necessary for a healthy professional relationship between you, will take more time. So fingers crossed tomorrow shows promise, and you feel happy to turn up again the next time.

I'm sorry your pdoc is suggesting another hospital stay. Your thoughts and feelings around that, could be worth discussing with your new psych tomorrow?

Ohhhh dear Snowie 😔💔 you can not be blamed for anything someone else decides to do. What are you meant to think, when they threaten such things? That they have a problem and should be speaking to a professional about it. You have already suggested they do that, so you have done all you can. It is NOT your fault Snowie that they are thinking this way. Deep down, they possibly feel guilty for your situation, but their psyche will not permit them to accept that. So they turn things around to put the blame on others, because the burden on themself is too great.

Chin up ... tomorrow could be a good day. I hope so anyway.

Emelia 💞

Thanks @Emelia8

You are right, I am not going to know tomorrow if this new psych is a good fit for me, it will take time. I just hope that I can open up to her and not close down like I do so many times before. I struggle to open up to anyone, especially new people.

I struggle with hospital, knowing it puts so much more pressure on H and the kids. They are really the ones that are affected by it. I go in and get well, yet H is the one who has to work full time plus do everything that I normally do. It is really hard on him which is why I am so hesitant going in again. It is something I need to discuss with the psych tomorrow.

I hope you are going ok this afternoon also hun. 💞

I'm sure your hubby would want you well though @Snowie ? Short term pain for long term gain don't they say? I get it though. I hope you can be open and honest with your psych tomorrow, first appointment is always hard, but maybe you'll go in there and just feel comfortable and let it all out.

Thanks @Bow

I hope it goes well tomorrow too. I know hospital might be the best thing for me but I struggle to put me first.

Thanks for listening 💜

Hi @Snowie

Just dropping by with a hug and some encouragement.

I had to see a new pdoc on Monday and I was incredibly anxious so much so that the night before I dreamt I’d decided to ride my bicycle to the appointment and I arrived 3 hours late!! Anyway, she was lovely so fingers and toes crossed the same happens with your new Psych...without the crazy dream.

My new pdoc is quite different to the one I’ve had for the past year but I think she’ll be good for me.

You might need to be prepared for your new Psych to be different too but that doesn’t mean the relationship won’t work.

Take a deep breath, put on your big girl pants and we’re only a tag away.

You can do this....I believe in you 💜💙💜

Thanks @Eve7 💜💜

Will be putting my big girl pants on

Good night @Snowie hope you get some sleep tonight and I’ll catch up with you tomorrow.

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Wishing you lock for tomorrow @Snowie 🤞🙏🤗💕🌷