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So glad today was a little better for you @Snowie Sending you much love and the usual squishy hugs 💜💙💚🧡💛

Thanks @Zoe7 Squishy hugs and love right back at ya!

@outlanderjust watching BBT on my laptop. My nights in here are so eventful, not!!

I don't mind my own time actually, I prefer it this way. There is a common lounge people sit in and chat but not that typr of person.

Have you got many plans for tomorrow?

Still in hospital, looks like I might be discharged next Tuesday hopefully. Will be happy to get home but scared at the same time, knowing I am semi safe in here. Still have lots of thoughts of SH and SI but they are not as intense which is good. If only they could disappear forever.

Had a family meeting today with H and the pdoc. Really anxious before hand but it seemed to go ok.

A decision has been made about family dynamics at home and who is not allowed at my house. I need to make sure my home is a safe place for me and my kids and with as little triggers as possible. It means some really hard conversations with some people. I am dreading those conversations and one of them will probably be the hardest thing I'll ever had to do, but for the sake of my mental health, my safety, my childrens safety and my furture it needs to be done.

That won't occur until discharge however and in person with those certain people. Perhaps thats one of the reasons I am hesitant to go home.

Flashbacks have set in and I have dissociated a few times this afternoon. I guess I expected it after the talk today.

Sorry for the long winded post and thanks for reading this far.

Lots of love and hugs

@outlander @Sans911 @Zoe7 @Faith-and-Hope @Shaz51 @Former-Member and anyone else reading this.

They are some pretty intense conversations you need to have Hon but I do believe it is a massive step forward for you and all your family @Snowie It is actually a massive breakthrough for you nd as hard as it feels to do all this right now the benefits in the long run outweigh that snxiety at present. I sm actually really proud of you and your strength to state your needs and have a plan in place to help you into the future. It might not feel like it right now but I see this as a momentus day for your future ...so very proud of you Hon

ohhh sending you tender hugs my @Snowie

Hello @Sans911 , @Zoe7 , @outlander , @Faith-and-Hope

Hi @Snowie .... 💜❄️💕

I just want to add how proud of you I am too ..... I am so glad to hear the meeting went okay (I had a difficult meeting this week that ended up being okay-ish) .... feeling for you, and glad that you have felt that sense of relief that it turned out manageable ......

I will be waiting to hear how the toughest convo goes ..... sending thoughts of courage and strength your way Hon.

❤️💪