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You would think that the gp asking if you were going to be safe is a pretty fair indicstion that you are not ok - some people do not have an common sense and certsinly don't actually care about the person @Snowie - that sucks soooo much - do they think we can just flick a switch and be ok - it doesn't work like that even though we wish it could - that makes me angry to hear you have been treated badly that you gp could see you were struggling and said something.

Thanks @Zoe7 just added to the crap already in my head.

Did you get everything you needed done today?

I know you have been having a really tough time and days like this one certainly aren't what you need - uninformed people making life worse not better

I had gp and chemist pickup @Snowie - that is all I needed to do but I managed a shower and made space near the back door for mine and F&H's potted garden - I am actually looking forward to doing it - will give me something to focus on.

My house is sort of clean - I did the vacuuming yesterday and cleaned the kitchen. I am not doing anymore tonight - bit buggered now! Tomorrow is hydrotherapy so I will be back in the water for about an hour - yea!!

I know keeping everything bottled up is not helping me @Zoe7, but at the same time hard to open those floodgates. I told my psych a little last week but ran out of time for the rest of it.

You accomplished a lot today @Zoe7. I think the potted garden for you and F & H is a great idea and will give you something to work on. Yea for pool tomorrow

I know how hard it is to actually get things out of our heads and actually be able to verbalise stuff @Snowie so the fact you told your psych a little last week is super impressive. I am still at that stage where I just don't have words for any of it - not sure there will ever be a time that I will - and that is ok if I can learn to live with it all inside and cope with it that way. Sometimes things are best kept inside ourselves because to let them out would cause even more pain - that is where I am sitting right now anyway!

I am glad I have the pool tomorrow - I don't think tonight is going to be easy - heading towards Neptune tonight - think I did too much today!

@Zoe7@Sans911@outlander

So one of the things troubling me happened just before I went into hospital but still an ongoing issue now. I cannot expalin it all, however the person at my work who I emailed my certifcate of capacity forms to, well I found out that she had told someone else details about me that she could only obtain from those forms, and that got back to me. At this stage she has been taken from my case. I know have to decide if I take it further or not, and how much further. They are talking lawyers and everything.

I am so distraught by this. Firstly because it was someone I trusted and now I have lost that and secondly, because we are still in the process of finding out how much she said about me.

That is truly horrible @Snowie - and to be still not knowing what was said and how much people know is terrible. You are dealing with it so well under the circumstances. I guess the questions you have to ask yourself is can you deal with going through with legal action, will that change anything and what will be the resultant affects on you. So much to consider but you also do not want this person to get away with breaking your trust as they have - so difficult for you Hon - no wonder you have been so torn and felt so broken over it all. Huge hugs Snowie and much love Whatever you decide know we are here with you all the way

Hugs @Snowie

Thanks @Shaz51

@Zoe7I don't want this person to get away with breaking this trust. Also because it is a breach of privacy. But I don't want to have to deal with more than I have to and getting outsiders involved could make it worse for me. Also doesn't help that H, pdoc and psych all have their opinions too that differ.

The decision needs to be up to you Hon - you are the only one that knows what you can and cannot deal with. What I think is that maybe you get legal advice and with that you discuss what kind of pressures you would be under then you are well informed and can make your decision. It is one of those cases when you don't want this person to get away with what they have done but you also need to protect yourself from any further harm - I have been in that position before Hon and it is not an easy place to sit.

@Snowie Sometimes what is right and what should be done is not aligned with what we can cope with - but that should be your decision and yours alone Hon.