My special place

@AuntGlow offer on house fell through. It was subject to them getting finance. Couldn't get it so back to square one.

I love my mum but I don't like her. If that makes sense.

Pdoc sent the chemist a new script with increase in med. Chemist rang me. I guess that's it.

Psych went ok. Mostly focused on what I'm doing and what's coming up. Last time I see her in person until next year. Even then I don't know when I'll see her as she hasn't opened her books yet. That makes things difficult. The lack of support plus not knowing what is happening.

Took me an hour and a half to drive a 35min drive. Just want to crawl into bed.

Tough day for you @Snowie Im sure the house will sell soon and maybe for a better price.

I hope the med increase helps. Mine have just been increased too but cant say I notice any difference.

I’ve stopped seeing my psych as pdoc sees me weekly and I find that enough.

Hoping the day goes better for you hon xo

Yeah sucks about the house @Eve7

I don't know if the med increase will help. Guess just see how it goes. Have to get bloods done too.

I've got a few more appts. left with psych but they are all telehealth. I hate telehealth.

Thats good that you can see your pdoc every week.

Really want to crawl into bed but too early.

How has your day been?

Good afternoon @Snowie,

Oh no! I am sorry to hear this... are you okay?

And yes, I definitely understand that. Sometimes it is hard to like our family, especially if they don't treat us in a way that helps us to feel heard and valued.

That would be tough - not knowing what is next or what is happening. It sounds like more support would certainly help here... what would you like to see happen over the next two months?

Gah, that is long. Honestly, rest sounds very needed right now. 🥰

I’ve had my ankle xrayed to try and find the source of the pain @Snowie

It’s been good having weekly pdoc appointments but she’s away this month so I’m starting to struggle a bit, no struggling a lot and just did something stupid.

Im just sitting in front of the tv watching Grand Designs. Not much uni work done today @Snowie

@AuntGlow I have a few more appointments this year but they are telehealth. I hate telehealth. I've told her that.

Not knowing how long she is taking off and when she'll be back is hard. Just in limbo. On top of that, pdoc away too.

I hate xmas time, too many bad memories from when I was young.

Yeah I can make plans, put things into place, tell myself I've gotten through it before. But at the end of the day it's still hard and lack of support doesn't help.

I can't say on here what happened last year.

It's hard when they are away @Eve7

The whole "they've been away before and you got through, you can do it again" just doesn't help. I hate when people say it to me.

I'm sorry you are struggling. It just sucks.

I hope you are ok hon.

Did something stupid too.

I’m sorry @Snowie I’ll just go

No need to be sorry @Eve7 and no need to go.

Here if you need me.

Yes, I remember you telling me this and it's so valid. @Snowie

I get why that would be stressful... who else could you turn to during this time? Also, is hubby at home tonight?

I understand, Christmas is vulnerable for so many of us, so please know you're in good company here. 🥰

I really hear you on this one... sometimes it's all too much to manage alone, isn't it? Have you explored peer support groups in person?

Also, I know you mentioned doing something and I am wondering if you are safe at the moment? Is there anything I can do to support you? 💛