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Hi @rav3n

I don't even have a friend I could talk to or would want to talk to, and I'm meant to speak to strangers. I hate all social situations. Even at school or work I was a loner.

A book club or cooking club would be better than any other one's.

My psych wants me to look into doing pilates/yoga or something similar. Same reaction.

I hope your day has gone well

I know what you mean about social activities and friends @Snowie . I’m the same wanting to isolate myself when I’m feeling down like now.

I have always isolated myself @GezzaP

Even from primary school I didn't have any friends. There is not one person from school, collage, work that I keep in contact with. I'm not blaming them, I never reached out.

Maybe it's just who I am, maybe it's from my childhood trauma, I guess I'll never know.

Even now, it always surprises me that people talk to me on here

Thank you for sharing @Snowie .

I just want to say that we appreciate talking to you here 🙂

I still have some friends from uni. @Snowie They try to encourage me but it doesn’t really work when I’m feeling down. Mine comes from bipolar disorder and I had a fight with my sister who says she won’t talk to me again even though I said I was sorry. With her she’s always right and you’re always wrong. I am a footy fan and it’s all that’s keeping me going at the moment. At least I managed to eat today. Will try to make it as far as the shower tomorrow. Thinking of going to bed soon. Sleep as you know is the only escape apart from the footy. Had two nightmares last night. One was in Spanish.

Thanks @tyme

I find friends such hard work, so anxiety provoking

I can understand how hard it is to keep going @GezzaP

Think I will be in bed soon also.

I hope your sleep tonight is more peaceful for you.

I find it hard to even call people 'friends' because I don't feel as 'friends' I should feel that anxiety, nor want to just run home... right @Snowie

I went to yoga for a little while @Snowie but when the teacher made fun of me when I couldn’t do one thing and suggested an outdoor session I was scared off.

Thank you @Snowie going to bed now will listen to radio as won’t go to sleep straight away even though I’ll be taking my meds soon. Hoping no nightmares tonight.