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@Snowie @Shaz51 @outlander @Eve7

Thinking of you all.

Sorry to hear about all the hard stuff you are going through right now @Snowie . Gentle hugs from me, and I am sitting with you even if you are asleep. Much love

Hey my @Sans911 😊

How are you my awesome friend 🧡

Hey @Shaz51

I am so so thanks. I see you have had a rough time with your health lately. Sorry to hear that. How are you now?

I have been trying to cull some of my notifications from my early days here in the forums, so that's why I am also back here a bit more. The forums were such a massive source of support back when my mental health was at its worst (I am not necessarily that much better, but it's just different, I guess), and I kept almost all notifications because they were what I clung to to get me through some long, awful nights. It's very hard to let them go, but my email has way too many emails. So I am taking my time, being careful with not to rush the process, but only keeping the really important, most resonant notifications.

@Sans911 ,

If you need anything please ask @tyme , @Jynx about your past threads xx

@Shaz51

sorry, I meant my email notifications. I wasn't sure if I could mention emails

All good 👍 @Sans911

For me one day at a time here xx

But no dialysis yet 😁

You have been talking about dialysis for some time @Shaz51 so it's good to see that it's been held off so far. It's just a shame about all the other uncomfortable things. I completely understand, because comfort is rarely something I can attain these days.

I am seeing my pain specialist tomorrow afternoon, mostly for his assistance in rewriting his report in an acceptable format for the NDIS, so that I can make attempt no 3 in trying to get my fibromyalgia accepted. I am trying to help him by writing as much as possible for him to include in the report, which is a lot of information. So right now, I have increasing nerve pain and discomfort in my neck and shoulder blades.

Thanks all

Flashbacks yesterday weren't great. Lots of distraction needed. Ended up so tired just from trying to get through the day. It was just one of those days where you just write it off.

Went to hairdresser this morning so had a bit of 'me' time. Have to go up the supermarket (well have to take mum there) but really just want to make a nice warm place on the couch.

Sending love to all 💗💗

Today has been one of those days.

Little sleep last night.

Took mum to an appt. today. She was having a bad day but everyday seems to be bad lately. She was getting frustrated so short with me, can't remember what I said to her yesterday, argued with dentist (I had to remind them she has dementia), told me again that I don't care about her, argued again with me saying she doesn't need to use her walker (after she almost fell).

My patience is running very low.

On top of that my brother messaged me today and wants to meet me to talk about mum. Bring on the flashbacks again.

Finally home

No rest, needing more prn, trying to hide the tears

Still 2 days away until I can talk to my psych. How much can you fit into one session.

Here with you @Snowie, today sounds like it has been really, really hard. 😔

I am glad you will see your psych in two days, but what are you needing most to get through tonight? 💛