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@Snowie wrote:

Thanks @tyme

Do you ever feel worse coming out of a psych session then when you went in? Have more questions than answers?

Absolutely I have @Snowie !

I worked out that for me, there were two reasons for this:

1) It pushed me a little out of my comfort as part of the recovery process

2) I was pushed too far, beyond my threshold which meant it was detrimental

Over time, I learnt to recognise which one it was so that if it was leaning into the latter, I'd be assertive and tell the psych to stop.

I don't think I was pushed too far @tyme that it was detrimental. But I do think what we talked about opened some flood gates. It felt like for every step forward there two backwards.

I don't blame my psych, I was the one who brought up the topics. She just dived a bit deeper than I was prepared for. The outcome just hasn't been good.

If you don't feel it was harmful, I wonder if this is what is needed to 'move on'? @Snowie I don't know, but I'm thinking maybe your psych 'feels' this is a way forward?

I hear it is hard though. And I just want to say, that it may not be as uncommon as you think. For me, without the uncomfortable parts of therapy, I know I wouldn't have been able to move forward.

My psych does 'push' me at times @tyme I guess I need to trust her in knowing how far she can push me.

Maybe I am just being over sensitive. Maybe I just need to give it time to see how it has helped. Maybe I am just jumping to conclusions too early.

Its just a matter of using my coping skills and self care at the moment, taking it one moment at a time.

Hey @Snowie . Perhaps this is part of the process? But know that if you feel it's too much, you have the right to put your foot on the break.

Thanks @tyme

Heading to bed, that session today has exhausted me.

Thanks for the chat and helping me.

I hope your night goes well.

Hugs. Holding your hand @Snowie

Thanks @tyme

I hope your day has gone well.

To be honest @Snowie , I had a really crappy day so I'm just working through it now. But I'm happy to be here. The forums re-regulate me 🙂

Are you feeling a bit better today?

I'm so sorry it has been a crappy day @tyme

If you need a chat, I'm here.

I haven't given myself time to feel today. Kept extra busy. At least the house is clean! And the dog!

Been sitting down for about the last hour and it's starting to flood out.