My special place

@creative_writer just fed her and she's gone outside for a bit. Very much an indoor dog.

Not much of a KFC fan either @Eve7 Can't say I really eat it.

I think anything at 7 11 would cost a lot. But I'm sure the pancakes will taste yummy tomorrow morning! An early night does sound good.

If I could hang out in any world @Jynx it would have to be somewhere covered in snow. Just white all around me. Peaceful too. Just hearing the sounds of nature.

I think my brain is stuck at the moment. It certainly needs a reboot. Maybe with the admission it night happen.

The walk was pleasant @Snowie I’m sorry your brain is stuck right now but I’m sure the admission will help.

Not sure about the ect @Eve7 but don't really have a choice. Pdoc said at least 9-12 sessions.

Just not looking too far ahead.

Any plans for tonight?

@creative_writer yeah sure, could have been worse. Could have been better too. But whether that means you're 'overreacting' well... that's entirely up to you. Not me, not your psych, YOU.

Cos like... well ok here's my question to you - does it help? If viewing your response to this particular instance of trauma as an overreaction paves the way towards you being better able to recover from it, fab!

If however, it leaves you riddled with shame and strengthens the narrative that you're weaker or less capable because you were heavily impacted by the SA where someone else may not have been (Side note: BUT, no one else would have had to deal with the situation AS WELL AS dealing with all your past trauma stuff too; if they had, they probably would have 'overreacted' too), then it's not a particularly helpful narrative to take on board is it?

If it's the latter, maybe it's worth another convo with your psych, to try to drill a bit deeper into how your brain interprets what she's saying and highlight to her that even tho she was tryna help, maybe another tact is needed...

Ohhh so lush @Snowie!! Yeah maybe a reboot would help! And also, taking the time to visit your snowie mental world when you can - building up the neural wiring so it becomes easier to access, especially when distressed.

You got critters in your snowscape? Or is it at all like Elsa's castle in Frozen?

Also hi @Eve7 👋 hope you're well! 💜

No plans for tonight @Snowie just on the couch with the footy and a book.

Grandies are playing cards. It’s amazing when they’re 12 years apart in age.

I had 12 ECT sessions with my most recent admission. I think it’s helped but it doesn’t take much to flatten me. I’m just weak.

Hello @Jynx I’m ok, thanks for asking.

@creative_writer she is a cavoodle. Great for people with allergies. Sleeps with me at night too!

@Jynx there are animals in there. The birds chirping and dogs too. I have photos on my phone of it.

I just have to keep going until I go in. Or maybe I am putting too much pressure on myself.