My special place

I don't think anyone can have their shit together 100% of the time @creative_writer That is just totally unrealistic. We all have those up and down times. We all have those times where we need some support, that we need to rely on others to help/support us, whether that be on here or with our supports.

I hope you feel able to open up on here whenever you need it hon. No one should be shutting you down.

I don't think it is as easy as just getting with someone and marrying them. There has to be that connection there, physical attraction included. I hope your parents are not putting pressure on you to go down that path. Everyone is different and how they view marriage/relationships differs from person to person. What is important is that you are happy within yourself. I know people that are so happy in their marriage and I also know people that are miserable. I don't think marriage can define us.

@creative_writer I totally agree with you. Marriage should be about respect. It needs to be something that both people want, not just because it is socially the right thing to do. I always tell my D that unless the other person respects you, they are not worth being with.

I find the pressure of being the only girl real. That I have to look after my mum and take her to her appointments. That I am the one she calls when she needs help. And it is getting worse lately, especially with her dementia. My brother does nothing, everything is left for me.

Thanks @creative_writer She has only been diagnosed this year so still in the early stages of it. I guess it is just a 'wait and see' what happens over the next few years/months. They really couldn't give us any time frame since it effects everyone differently.

It sounds like you are a wonderful support for your mum hon. She should be lucky to have you.

Its hard when we don't have people we can rely on when we are growing up @creative_writer

Even harder when our trauma catches up with us years later.

I just hope that you have people you can rely on now hon.

I think it is normal to feel guilty for reaching out at times @creative_writer

I hope you can find support on here too.

I'm sorry to hear about your body flashbacks hon. I hope you are able to get some respite from them. In saying that I do know how much they can take over your mind and your body.

I will say goodnight now hon. D is picking S up from work later on which means I get to go to bed earlier then expected.

I hope you get some sleep/rest tonight hon and tomorrow goes well for you. Will check in on you tomorrow hon. Thanks for the chat today/tonight and for keeping me company 💗💗