My special place

Oh congrats to your daughter @Snowie thats an awesome achievement!

do you feel that your hubby needs to know more stuff? I know that he is amazingly supportive of you. But yes, that is your space and I would also feel violated.

Thanks @Bow

He probably does need to know how I am going at the moment. I think he can sense I am not great but doesn't know the extent of it. I know my psych wants to talk to him about me doing more during the day. I know I need to do more yet the anxiety stops me. I don't think they realise how paralysing it can be.

How are you going?

@Snowie Can your psych just give hubby a call? That’s what my old psych use to do if she felt there were some things that my mum needed to know. We would discuss in session what she could and couldn’t say and I trusted her to stick to that agreement.

I know anxiety is difficult. What kind of things was she thinking about you doing?

im…. Surviving.

She has called H before @Bow I guess she could do it again.

She wants me to try and get out of the house more. To go for walks, go up the street, go help H at work, things like that. To me that brings a new level of anxiety. My house is my safe place but at the same time it is the place where I do the most damage. I hope that makes sense.

That makes sense @Snowie sometimes I struggle to get out of the house too. I go to my appointments, my arts and craft group- that often takes a lot of effort but my support worker is there and she makes sure I am ok.

Could you maybe start with going for a walk? Taking the dog? Venturing a bit further each time.

im catching up with my friend tomorrow. She’s coming here and then we will decide if we just stay here or go out. I’ve already decided that we will go somewhere. It will be good for me. Putting on my big girl pants!

I often only go out of the house for appts. or the supermarket @Bow I guess I try my hardest to avoid people or uncomfortable situations.

I sometimes take the dog for a walk, depending on my mood. I know I need to try harder.

That nice to be catching up with a friend tomorrow. I hope it goes well for you. Hopefully it will be a good distraction too.

I hope today is kind to you @Snowie. I understand how hard it is with anxiety. Maybe try little steps. Just a little out of your comfort zone.

Maybe when you go to the supermarket maybe try and pop into a different shop? Just one.

Had a gp appt. so had to leave the house. Was in and out in about 15mins. Just said ok when she asked how I was doing. Really didn't want to talk about what has been happening.

Got to the supermarket too which I'll count as a win.

Haven't spoken to H yet. Think I will just email my psych and tell her that he is busy that day.

@Snowie Thinking of you and sending hugs 💙

Wishing you a good day @Snowie. I hope your anxiety is settled down slightly.