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My special place

SnowieSenior Contributor15 Feb 2018, 9:51 am AEDT

My special place

Well yesterday certainly threw everything off track. But thanks to some very thoughtful and kind people I was able to get threw it and continue.

I cannot say a lot about what happened as I am sure you all understand but need this support in place.

Things WILL be ok, just a lot to work out.

Psych visit yesterday sorted out some of the things and more things will be happening early next week.

I am sorry if I put anyone through any despair, but unfortunately what happened yesterday morning had to be done.

Thank you all for your continued support.

@outlander@Sans911@Former-Member@Bubbles3@Bunniekins@Shaz51@CheerBear@Phoenix_Rising@Faith-and-Hope@Former-Member@Zoe7@Queenie@Former-Member

Brain still not functioning anyone so sorry if I missed anyone

for @Phoenix_Rising as I know how much you don't like love hearts!!!

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SnowieSenior Contributor21 Sept 2023, 4:14 pm AEST

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You are still a good mother @Bow please try and remember that.

I can understand not wanting her to come in. It is hard for them to see us in hospital.

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BowSenior Contributor21 Sept 2023, 4:18 pm AEST

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Feeling rather down on myself @Snowie got myself into such a mess this time.

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SnowieSenior Contributor21 Sept 2023, 4:21 pm AEST

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We are so much harder on ourselves then others @Bow We feel like we don't deserve the help.

I feel like I am constantly letting people down. That my life doesn't matter.

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BowSenior Contributor21 Sept 2023, 4:25 pm AEST

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Yep. Exactly like that @Snowie

ive had a lot of time to think in here…. And no one to really process it with. So heaping it on myself a lot

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SnowieSenior Contributor21 Sept 2023, 4:30 pm AEST

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I'm sorry no one is there to talk things through with @Bow

I would have thought they would at least get a psych or pdoc to see you, or even your CM.

It is hard to process everything with so many feelings coming up all at once. They are really hard to sit with.

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GezzaPSenior Contributor21 Sept 2023, 4:32 pm AEST

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@Snowie Luckily he has run out of smokes and therefore can’t smoke but I’m very very tempted to say fuck it let’s go to buy some smokes.

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GezzaPSenior Contributor21 Sept 2023, 4:33 pm AEST

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@Bow Yes I’m relatively new. Wishing you all the best.

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BowSenior Contributor21 Sept 2023, 4:44 pm AEST

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Yeah MH visits have been very inconsistent @Snowie and it’s been some random guy that I don’t know.

I’ve had a very kind nurse a couple of times. They do 12hr shifts in icu and I was constant 1:1 for a while and he was really nice. But I wasn’t in a position to talk then and I doubt he would have really known what to say anyways.

I’ve spent a lot of time in tears @Snowie

This would one day be my dream job. Doing peer work in a hospital. Going round talking to folks like me.

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outlanderSenior Contributor21 Sept 2023, 4:51 pm AEST

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sometimes our brains dont want to co-operate! @Snowie i hate when that happens.
it would be better for you to go to your gp but im sure you already know that.

yes i do, im at the better place tomorrow so im ok with that. plus a psych appt. i really dont want to go to it tomorrow. im not really up for talking about me but if i cancel now that $200 wasted since i have to pay it in full if i give less then 24 hours notice unless its urgent ie in hospital etc

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SnowieSenior Contributor21 Sept 2023, 4:52 pm AEST

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It is very hard to open up to strangers @Bow especially when they just come and go.

I'm sure the nurses are nice but unfortunately most people don't know how to respond to our mental health issues. They probably don't have the time just to sit and listen either. We all know how much of a shortage there is.

You would be really good at a job in peer work hon. I think having that lived experience makes it so much easier to connect with someone.

I really just want to cancel my appointments and stop taking my meds. I just wonder why I am putting myself through this.

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