My special place

Saw my psych. Spoke about a few things but time went really quickly. Didn't get much done on the list.

She asked if I was safe. Told her the truth.

Aww good on you @Snowie that can be so hard to do. How are you feeling about it now?

I had to check in when I got home @Jynx she wants me to email her tomorrow too.

I feel exposed.

Mm I'm not surprised @Snowie - suddenly having to open your moment by moment movements to someone else. I hope it feels like the right decision, even if it kinda sucks too. Do you have much on for the rest of your evening?

I don't know if it was the right decision, but it's done now.

She threatened to ring Hubby if I didn't check in. I feel stuck @Jynx

I'm already in my pj's ready for bed. I have no energy to do anything. Prn are helping keep my plans at bay.

Glad for the effectiveness of the prn @Snowie. Totally understand wondering if it was the right call, especially if the response has felt somewhat invasive, and it's never fun to be threatened, even if it's for a safety reason.

Hope you are keeping nice n toasty, I wish I were in bed! Maybe some comforting show or a book could be good, if you have the focus for it 💜

I'm not in bed yet @Jynx but don't think I will be far away.

I don't like when she gets H involved. Makes me feel trapped.

Mm that's not a fun feeling @Snowie - it's hard to feel like you don't have agency over how things will unfold.

I don't know much about your relationship w your hubby - what would happen if you spoke to him first? Is he a good support for you generally or not so much?

Hubby is a really good support for me @Jynx He always has been.

I'm just scared to tell him. Just scared he will think I am selfish for wanting what I want.

However, I would rather he heard it from me instead of my psych.

@Snowie aww that is awesome to hear. Yeah maybe it will help you feel a bit more empowered to take that step first?

Has he ever said you were selfish or otherwise reacted poorly in the past? If not, reminding yourself of that might help you to convince the anxious part of your brain that he would be nothing but supportive, and make it easier to open up to him.