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@Snowie I hope you're OK... 💙

Seems like I am back to not sleeping well. Been waking up early and not being able to get back to sleep.

My mum is really triggering at the moment and saying some nasty things. Told me I have no compassion for others and that I broke the family apart. It's hard not to believe her when she keeps saying things like that to me.

The thoughts have been intense and I'm struggling to sit with them.

Just another day in my life.

Hey @Snowie,

I'm so sorry to hear about the troubles with your sleep and the experience with your mum. It sounds awful and it makes sense that it's challenging not to believe those messages or take them to heart. For my part, for what it may be worth, from what I've seen of you here on the forums, I feel like you're a very compassionate and sensitive person, appreciated and valued by many here 💙

Do you have any plans for self care today? Anything that might help you ride out the wave of the intense thoughts you've been sitting with?

Thinking of you today @Snowie and sending lots of love.

💜💜💜

Thanks @Eve7 💜

@TideisTurning really just trying to get through the day as safely as possible.

One step at a time @Snowie. I'm not sure if the exercise in the Safe Sharing post discussion may help? I've tagged you there in case.

Take good care & be gentle with yourself 💙

Thanks @TideisTurning will have a look.

Just taking it bit by bit

Had a message from my brother this afternoon asking to catch up some time.

I don't know how to feel about it. I haven't spoken to him for a long time. There is a reason I stopped seeing him. Haven't answered him either. He can see I have read it though.

Has really unsettled me. I feel numb.

I’m sorry this is happening for you @Snowie. You have to do what is right and comfortable for you.

I’ll be here with you whatever you decide