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I'm sorry to hear about your migraine @creative_writer I hope it doesn't get any worse for you.

Glad dinner is being made for you, one less thing you have to worry about. I hope it helps a little. What is for dinner at your house?

My kids are having a meal from the freezer. Before I went into hospital I made heaps of meals and froze them all. When I don't feel like cooking I just grab one of them out of the freezer. It's easy for me and I still know they are getting a proper meal. They are having Sheperds Pie.

I probably won't have any tea. My appetite is non existent.

That sounds yummy @creative_writer I hope you enjoy it and it helps with your mood and migraine.

I can try and eat something but it normally makes me feel worse. It just doesn't agree with me at the moment. It is strange how it can help some people yet not others.

Going to sign of soon and go to bed early. I think staying up could be bad for me.

I hope you have a nice night and a good day tomorrow.

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@Snowie Sorry to hear about the bad thoughts, SH and lack of sleep 😞

Also concerned you're not eating as it can make eating harder...the stomach gets used to no food and then doesn't cope well with food. Can you mention it to your psych and pdoc as a matter of priority? Maybe write it down and hand it to them if it's too hard to mention? The longer it goes on then the more complications will arise 😞

I have food issues and I know they're not easy. Sending you hugs 💙

Saw my psych today for the first time in 6 weeks. Last time was before I went into hospital.

Spoke about how it went, the ect, my memory loss, not eating and losing weight.

She asked me about my sh and I told her a little bit but not everything I had done.

Didn't get asked about my si or if I was safe, so didn't tell her. My fault or course, I chickened out.

Told her I had been keeping a journal which she seemed pleased about. Not sure she would be pleased if she read it however.

We did some visualization which I managed to do and follow. She asked if I can do it everyday and said I would try. Not sure if I will be able to do it without her however. It is a lot harder then people think.

She has rang and emailed my pdoc to get a report from the hospital but hasn't heard back yet. She seemed frustrated/angry that she hasn't heard back from him.

Now I have to wait another month before I see her again. Not sure I can last that long. She has put me on her cancelation list but doubt that will do anything. Shouldn't complain however, some are lucky if they see their psych monthly.

Take the small wins @Snowie. You did tell her some things. It may not have been everything but focus on what you did manage. That is a big step. I do hope you get in before your monthly appointment. You can complain all you like. What you need is what you need.

@Snowie

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