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Thanks for the support @Zoe7 @NatureLover @outlander @Eve7

I chickened out last night and didn't speak to H. He is out all day today. I just couldn't bring it up and feel useless about myself even more now. The only thing my psych asked me to do and I couldn't do it.

Got through the night thanks to meds and prn.

I took the kids to school but have no motivation to do anything or help myself. What is the point anymore. I still want to escape from everything.

Hi @Snowie . You are having a really confronting time at present and this can be challenging for you. As the previous posts have pointed out to you on this thread, it's about self-care and compassion for yourself during times like these. As this is such a hard time for you, make a small decision around what step to take to manage and cope. Is it better for you to rest or reach out and put your safety plans into place. You have choices as to how you can respond safely to the current situation, and as always,there are many on the forum to assist you with your decision making. Keep safe and look after yourself. Roadrunner.

hey @Snowie, be gentle ❤️

It's ok if you don't want to answer, but I'm curious about what made it difficult for you to talk to H about what you're experiencing at the moment?

I know for me, when I don't tell my partner about how I'm feeling, it's often because I'm scared of rejection or that I'll be a "burden". What they say back to me is that he's chosen to support me, and that means we're sharing the struggle. And I'm not a burden. Not sure if that's useful for you?

Sitting with you @Snowie

Have you thought about writing what you would say to h? Maybe that would help get your thoughts sorted.

💜💜💜

Hey @Snowie How about not seeing it as 'chickening out' but rather giving yourself time to get your thoughts together. @Eve7 's suggestion to write things down would also help to get things ready to say to H. He loves you and supports you and would no doubt rather know what is going on so he can help than you sit with all this alone. It may also give you some relief to not have to carry it all alone. You are more than worth the support, care and love and we all want you here and with us - and we all want to see you supported in all the ways possible to get through this. Hugs and hugs and hugs and hugs our dear Snowie 💙💙💙

Hi @Former-Member

I am scared of telling him because I am worried how he will react and that I am burden to him.

I feel a burden to everyone at the moment. On here, my supports and my family.

I don't think I should say how I am really feeling on here at the moment. I don't want to trigger anyone or upset anyone. Silence just might be better.

Is there anyone around?

Hey @Snowie 💙

Hi @Zoe7

Can you just sit with me please. I am struggling.

Sorry @Zoe7

I think it is better if I just go.

I hope you have a nice night. Thinking of you and your dad.

Take care of yourself