It just hurts

Tonight i will yes, no point not would just cause more harm. @outlander im guess ect is eletric shock or what ever it is? I aint talked or mentioned that with anyone. Ill just snuggle with one of my cat n get by for the night. Its hurts to know those i reached out to just dissmissed my concerns for myself. I dont mention i struggle lightly i hate saying it. Ill be ok for now but thank you for your time i dont mean to concern anyone at all i any way

Yeh its something like that @Former-Member im not sure on those details as yet but could be an option for you. Please try your best to keep safe. We care for you hear and im glad you felt you could talk to me tonight to release abit of what your going through ❤ i think snuggling with your cat sounds like a good idea maybe put on a movie or some thing to keep your mind occupied

Move is on @outlander and one of my four kitties is next to me im sure the rest will gather around in a bit. I am just thankful you were able to talk with me tonight outlander i often feel way less deserving of other people as im sure many do here. Im not sure sharing has helped any but i am so aopreciate to have you here with me. I just wish i could give more back.
I hope you manage some sleep tonight @outlander i hope it isnt to long for you

Ive never watched move @Former-Member and im sure your fur babies will all gather around soon enough. Only takes one to start a chain reaction lol.
You are just as deserving as anyone else lovely. Im glad i was able to help on someway and as i said you do help. You dont have to have long fancy posts to help ❤ my night is halfway through now. A few more hrs and ill be back up again

@outlander i do hope you get some point! Your right it is a chain reaction two are on the bed now the other two will follow later im sure. I cant say im exactly watching it to be honest its more background noise. Thank you for jist taking the time out to be with me, not many are willimg to do that at all. I hope i havnt made your night any worse hun❤❤

Wont be long before the other 2 join un @Former-Member i have lots of background noise too i barely watch anything. I have the pouring rain sound happening outside. Nope you havent made my night worse and i dont mind talkinf to you. You only have to tag me or commet here and myself or someone else ia often around ❤

Half the time im not sure how i have room on the bed for myself @outlander haha i dont mind so much the leaving a comment here but i know you undersrand my struggle of tagging people:)
I donno how to explain it but it seems only people care if i give them reason for concern (and no not what i qas trying to do here or i real life in any way) just know people wont care until its to late then they will pretend about it all. Ill try let u sleep bor sure exactlt of timw for u but cant be to far away off midnight. I do hope you get some sleeo lovely. Please know ill forever be thankful for your company tonight. ❤💖❤💖

I do understand @Former-Member yeh it was just after midnight where i am and nodded off before i had a chance to see your post.
I was finding that trouble and still do really unless your suicidal then its like oh well they are fine sort of thing. Ive had that so much this past yr besides the crisis times when i ended up in hospital. Obe of those times could have been prevented had i have not been turned away by every service i reached out to so i do get it.

Hopefully today is a better one for you and maybe managed some sleep too......🌺

@outlander im glad u nodded off i hope you were able to stay asleep last night.

@sunshowr thanks for dropping by.


My heart is so heavy its hard to carry just got to get through another hour, then the next one and so on and so on and so on. Time is so so slow a few minutes can seem like hours. Its all just a blur at the moment im not connected to my self or those around me cant feel connected anywhere to be honest. I am well aware im doing self distructive stuff but i do not care enough to stop or not do it.