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How do i begin what do i say? Im sorry if is this just sounds like jibberish.
It hurts to be alive. I cant even think of words to say anymore. Im crying but mostly because i have some understanding of how it would effect others if i was to go. Ive delt with MH for more of my life than i havnt. Im not even sure what this will achieve posting this. Im just feeling awful and low. Sorry. And thank you for your time
@Former-MemberI am really worried about you hun. I know you have a sleep over tonight, but please reach out for help if needed or even go somewhere. We want you safe hun
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Unknown userMember
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@Former-Member its tough when its our own brain that seems to be against us. Can understand feeling scared. Please jump on chat or call in if you think that talking things through will help.
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I am honestly safe tonight with the sleep over, i dont have a choice but to be, so good and bad. The last thing i want to do @Snowie is add to your worries. Its just gonna be a rough night till kids asleep them prob even more tough once shes asleep with my own battle. Ill get by for tonight even if i dont want to ❤❤
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SnowieSenior Contributor
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I worry about you because I care about you @Former-Member. You are not adding to my worries at all.
I am glad you are safe tonight but I know how hard it is to go on when you don't want to. It consumes your thoughts day and night, and as much as you try and distract yourself, those thoughts do not go away. I understand how hard it is to have little or no hope left.
It is your batttle but use this forum to help you fight that battle. It is so super hard to do it alone.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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@Former-Member ❤🌻🌷
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@Former-Member i jumped on chat this morning, and small child is arrving semi soon so or in the middle of typeing this talk later all hope the night is kind to you xx
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Dropping by to check in with you @Former-Member, I see you are having an energetic sleep over tonight. Well that might wear you out so you too can get some sleep when the kids' eyes close. What courage you have to take on a childs' sleep over, you're a better person than me!!
Although it will be tiring and require lots of effort , I hope you find some enjoyment in tonight's escapades hun.
(I'm still giggling about the way I thought hair wraps were done! )
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Sans911Senior Contributor
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@Former-Member - I really feel for you as I know those scared feelings that you try to hold inside, scared if you tell someone what will happen, but at the same time feeling like you might explode, lose control of keeping a lid on everything, and then....you go to that dark place, and it's damn harder still to find your way out. Please talk to me, @Snowie, @outlander or anyone else you feel comfortable with. We understand, we really do. And we have are more than happy to help. It's a mutual thing; by supporting you we feel that we have purpose. Doing it alone, keeping quiet just makes everything go around in viscous circles. You end being overwhelmed & not knowing where to turn to or how to help yourself. This is what these forums are about so you don't need to fight your battles alone. Take care 💞
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@Sans911 and scared because so much of me just want to give in not reach out and do all the wrong things. Im still doing things now but not to the full extream (i am safe i dont know how else to word what im getting at) but your words are so true. I am already at the point i dont know where to turn what to do at all:(
@Snowie its hard to lean on anyone a lot of the time when thats half my battle becuase so so so much of me dosnt wanna reach out or care if i fully self distruct.
@Former-Member yeah it can be full on but hasnt been to bad so far i am exhausted but not for sleep at the moment. I will sleep later early here still.
@outlander thank you, hope your holding up ok ❤❤
Thank you all so much for your time i appreciate you all so bloody much ❤❤
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Alot of us are like that @Former-Member but we are here for each other ❤ we choose to support you because we care and understand ( and even if we didn't we are here anyway) always happy to listen to what you have to say rant etc whenever you need ❤
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