It just hurts

I hope i sleep also its but we shall see still early here

Its sad to think 18 years and im only knocking on 30's this year, it make my heart ache but not in a good way. I just dont understand why i keep trying
Mostly because its the 'right' thing to do.

The first one shouldnt be to hard, just scared it a lady i know as she has same name prob not but ah well!

Its the right thing to do but you are worth fighting for @Former-Member more than anything i believe thats the reason also because your willing to get better.
If its a lady you know and your uncomfortable then its ok to change they also have the confidentialy there too. When i had my first hospital admission last yr i was there for a week and was treated by my mums ex boyfriends dad so we were related by family at one point. Very award but he helped quite abit too.
Its 1130 here in nsw are you in wa when its 3 hrs behind?

@outlander i like the lady just will be awkard for a bit but it prob not even just brain making up silly shit to worry about.

Yeah thats why i jave said yes to all that has been offered to me so that i can gain all the knlowldge i can as each persons has different ways to see things so it may be worth it...but i dont want this to be my life even with the good and love and such just nope its not worth getting beaten down time and time again.
I slipped up with SH recently and i am not sure but thing it may be getting infected or is? I donno.
Just more blah blah blah basically!

Sorry i fell asleep @Former-Member good luck with your appt today i hope it goes well.
With your wound best to get it checked by a gp.

@outlander all good glad you managed some sleep.

@Former-Member thank you.


I hate hate hate first sessions....tell me why you're here give me a history just be quick dont have to go to far into it. Then they kind of give how they can help.
Sure its a small moment to you, but today those memories are going to be trying to bust out, ill be so alet i notice stuff that isnt even real. Thanks just thanks!.

It seems she can be helpful tho everyone keeps saying im so hard on myself but i dont see it, she gave said like that i worry i havnt done enough on my own before i rely on prn or ask for help, i dont see how thats being hard on myself at all?!?.
Anyways im yet again so exhaused broken sleep and sleep i do get isnt rest full i am waking up more and more exhausted everyday.
Im going to try nap before school pick up

First sessions are hard @Former-Member but you done well. I really hope she can help you. Was she the person you thought she was?
Rest for now, hopefully youll get a nap in ❤

Thanks at @outlander yet again i just feel worse after what was a broke nap of an hour. I am gonna be home later than normal tonight as well, gonna try get a coke to help.
My eye dont even want to open they hurt so much:(

Hopefully you will get some more sleep tonight @Former-Member
Have you thought about asking your gp about sleeping meds? Im on very strong ones but are extremely addictive. They work well as a reset though and gives a good nights sleep for usually 6 hrs so theres options out there for sleep too