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How do i begin what do i say? Im sorry if is this just sounds like jibberish.
It hurts to be alive. I cant even think of words to say anymore. Im crying but mostly because i have some understanding of how it would effect others if i was to go. Ive delt with MH for more of my life than i havnt. Im not even sure what this will achieve posting this. Im just feeling awful and low. Sorry. And thank you for your time
I get it @Former-Member. Today is a bad day for me too. Some days life just sux more than other days. Hopefully tomorrow will go well with your psychiatrist.
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@utopia just a psychologist but i hope it goes well also. I am sorry to hear that today was so rough on you also, i hope that you manage to get a good night sleep and have a better tomorrow ❤❤
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utopiaSenior Contributor
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Thanks @Former-Member. Don't think I'll get a good sleep. Have been so anxious and teary since my psychiatrist took me off my anxiety meds. I think I'll call him tomorrow and ask him to prescribe something new.
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@utopia i think it may be a good idea to call him and see if you can come up with something im not sure how long you have been off them but if its having such effect calling him is prob for the best. I hope you manage to find some calm in your night ❤❤
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Session was today it was a bit strange. My psychologist said she felt like she was toturing me 😕 i am not sure what that means. I have so many thing running through my head now, because im sharing my thoughts and she is trying to tell me it gets better but really she knows it not to be true for herself? How was she toturing me? I was just sharing how its been recently for me. It was so exhausing and i was almost close to sleep before 7pm then something happend to increase my anxiety and no sleep no longer seems needed.
Next is wednesday with a new psychologist so we shall see how it all goes.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Hi @Former-Member That was abit strange to say though i think she means it was a hard session and you were struggling with it. How are you feeling today?
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@outlander i have no idea it just seems so strange i cant help thinking about when she was telling me about progress and the way it happens worse before it gets better and slowly improves and that keeps going for life and i asked her to stop as i know this and am aware but it wasnt helpful at that time just made me feel worse that this is my life. I dont know what she means it gets easier every time, because thats not true, they just think its easier because i try and use healthy methods to cope. Its still just as full on.
New therapy lady tomorrow, i am currently an anxious mess my legs feel like they are trembling, im not sure if they are?!. My belly is a nervous mess
I hope you guys can understand what im saying i feel like i speak gibberish
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Not gibberish @Former-Member ❤ It dis sound really unhelpful and can be a set back basically being told this is your life until eventually things get better. It also sounded like she didn't listen to you when you said stop and continued on. Therapists are only human to though so make mistakes but unless they have experienced mental health themselves it can be hard to understand. They can read and learn and coach but without experience it can still be tricky to fully understand. Your sounding pretty nervous which is understandable. Can you do anything tonight and tomorrow to help easr those nerves? A nice hot shower, a hot drink but not coffee as its a stimulant, read a book, watch a movie or listen to relaxing music?
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@outlander i smell coffee and ill be awake for a week i dont drink it or coke or much woth cafine in it i use to. I hope to sleep im so frazzled. She did stop when i asked we changed topic she respected that, i just feel they are some how connected. I have been working doing therapy and geting help for 18 years now and i should be so thankful i have had such intense proffessional help, dont get me wrong i have learn heaps and new ways to cope instead of SH it dont really make the battle i face any easier, it seems to make them comfortable about it. Its just as intense and full on, i get so scared not sure when i can trust me and when i cant. When i cant control how it its when it hit or why it hits. And knowing this is the cycle i will have for life isnt exactly something to look forward to when i already am struggling to find reason not to just cave and give it. I will just find something to watch and jump in bed early i have has horrible broken sleep with hours awake inbetween recently. Thank you for taking time for me when you have so much going on *hug
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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I really hope this therapist will be able to break the ice and get you on the right track @Former-Member Finding something to watch sounds good, hopefully it won't be broken sleep tonight. Your most welcome. We are here for each other ❤
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