Daily goals, motivation and check in

I’m kind of back @Faith-and-Hope. Managed to process some more stuff. Have taken @Appleblossom advice and planned the meals for the week.....have ingredients and now just need to make them. Was hoping to get dog out for a walk but it’s not been great weather here. Will maybe hop on another thread later.

Glad YOU are back. @Teej

Cept I dont do a week menu plan despite my 2 gay uncles advising me to do so in my early 20s. They knew too much about their own particular palates and not enough about child rearing, fanily loyalty, and the pressures on me.

What works for us is a 2-5 day plan ahead style, depending on variables happening at the time. It helps prevent excess cooking and other forms of food waste which I do detest.It keeps it a bit relaxed and makes LIFE the focus rather than routine .. tho they have their place too ...

It helps me keep some focus in motherly conversation but also flexibility re what he wants or what he is prepared to do ie shop and prepare.

I dont actually believe in raising happy kids. I see that as dumb holiywood lies.

I want active somewhat capable kids in a well rounded manner, with some social ethic and some capacity for joy. The particulars are not up to me but them ...

thats just us.

Cheers Bella

I am not tagging anyone in this as you will read it if you find it and want to.

Today I had a huge breath-taking shift moment, which when I told my foster sister, I broke down and cried.

I spent the whole day alone, except for a man coming to buy my mother's juicer. I only spoke to my biological sister briefly on the phone until my foster sister rang with some lovely news and I told her my good news.

There was nothing extraordinary in my day today except one thought. As I progressed through my day, I cleaned my house, prepared pumpkin for soup, and fixed my dinner. I washed Jasper, my black and white kitten and cut his claws. My other boy cat had a delightful few hours of his own peace in the back garden, tethered to the clothes line by his extended lead.

I ate really well today. My usual breakfast of cereal, fruit and yoghurt. No lunch, just some crisps and a cup of tea. Some delicious watermelon a bit later, and a pork chop roasted in the oven for dinner was so tender along with some home-grown pumpkin, carrots and potato.

I ate my dinner out under the back patio. I fully immersed myself in the tastiness of my meal, simple as it was. The sun was setting with some beautiful clouds and colours. And a couple of birds were chasing each other through the bougainvillea bush, uncaring that I as only metres away.

That one thought? Today was the first time in almost 2 years that I have felt good to be alive, that life is possibly worthwhile and can be beautiful. I didn't know when or even if I was going to feel like this , and I also thought it would be a long way off, but a peace and calm has come over me today. I am trying to trust in the process of recovery, whatever shape that it might take, and that something good will be there on the other side.

That was so lovely and amazing for me to read @Sans911. I’ve been searching for that feeling for a long time too.

This is what I thought of reading that post.....this level of serenity and peace.

@Sans911 ..... I am so thrilled for you ❣️

@Appleblossom I agree with you on much of what you wrote. My weekly plan has breaks for leftovers. I find if it’s planned and the food is there they will cook it so it’s finding a place where we can share to cooking part together and all hop in together.

@Sans911