@NatureLover physical chronic pain, the result of a disorder I have lived with all my life. Complication increase over time. It is a contributor to the depression. An emotionally abusive relationship and eventual splitup I guess could be called emotaional pain, but that has actially been a little better this last week 🙂 though I still hate living alone with the social isolation created during the relationship. Still miss my step children terribly. Wish I was into gaming or social media to pass the time, but they are not my thing intellectally. What did occupy my time was very technical and destroyed when I left. I am housed as a victim of domestic abuse and it is impossible to resetup here. Maybe when more permanent accomodation is found I can do something. In the meantime it is dealing with legacy debt as everithing somehow ended up in my name. Not easy on a disability pension - no extra fortnitly covid payment here. She gets covid jobseeker, though no interest in work, but will not contribute and tells the kids money is short because I left! I left things of mine there that the kids used and continued paying bills related to them.
It has been a very hard few months - sometimes I think staying with the abuse would have been better, untill I remember certain parts of it and how this is the only way to get to a brighter future if that is possible at 50 yo.
