soul’s year of recovery

good morning @soul and all others

looking forward to reading more of your progress as I am just into week 4 or my recovery...

I shall when I have the time go back to the beginning of your journal....

you can be an inspiration from me...

I am trying very hard and if anything am suffering from doing too much too soon...too fast...

have always been a bit of a racehorse sigh...I think might be connected with depression...that ray of sunshine grabbing it while I can...

here is today's beautiful garden

not working...those little people in my computer are at it again...will have to try later...am stiff and sore..need to move xxx

Hi @soul, trust all is well in your world, thinking of you.

@soul ❤❤❤

Hi everyone. Okay - here’s the progress report you’ve all been waiting for. Firstly - last Sunday was difficult for me as it was the first Mother’s Day without my Mum. My kids took me out to lunch and seeing women with their older Mums made me somewhat tearful. I held it together until after the kids had left, then let it all out.

Today also happens to be Dad’s birthday. Gone nine years now. So I have been feeling a bit sad lately.

Next - my physical health. I saw my physio today and he told me that I was almost there in terms of recovery. As far as range of motion goes, I am at 90% for most movements except for tricky ones like reaching up behind my back. I can however do up my bra with a bit of effort. Considering I was advised that it would take twelve months, I reckon all the hard work has paid off - the accident was six months ago. I still do my exercises twice daily and get new ones every time I have a physiotherapy session which is now every fortnight. I’m enjoying swimming and can walk further distances.

Now - for the part you’re all wondering about. Yes - I have been dating and I have met someone who I really enjoy the company of and can see a future with. It’s early days yet but I have a good feeling about this. Only took four tries. First guy I saw four times; second guy - once; third guy - twice. After my miserable marriage and my disastrous previous relationship, maybe it’s a case of third time lucky. I certainly hope so. He ticks all the boxes and we have really good communication. He’s easy to be with, intelligent, funny, kind and caring. And he’s good looking too! 😉

So for the first time in quite a while, I am feeling happy and quite optimistic about the future. At times, I think this will all evaporate or something bad will happen because that is what happened in the past. It seems too good to be true and I’m feeling so fortunate.

I just hope I don’t self sabotage it. He senses my uneasiness now and then and I am thinking that we’ll have to have that conversation about why I am that way. Part of me doesn’t want to tell him for fear he will be shocked and wonder why I stayed with a man who was like that - as if there was something wrong with me. To tell you the truth, if I had heard my story and wasn’t a part of it, I’d be thinking it was all a bit weird. All I’ve said thus far was that it didn’t end well and that the relationship was unhealthy.

I suppose we all have skeletons in our closets and I want this relationship to be one built on respect, understanding and honesty.

I have told my daughter and she seems happy enough although maybe somewhat reticent after my last relationship of which she knew a bit about. We even discussed internet dating and the pros and cons of it.

So there you have it. Ha ha @Former-Member - now you know. But of course, I’ll still be around. I get by with a little help from my friends.