soul’s year of recovery

hello @soul

wanting to say hello and leave you a flower....as well as a heart...

so I found some beautiful flowers in a garden and thought you might like to see them....

missing you Lots @soul

@soul .... 🤗💕💐❤️🌷👋

Hi to all you good people on the Forum. Sorry to have alarmed you in any way with my hiatus. Your concerns and well wishes have not gone unnoticed.

I needed a break around Easter time. Having a disfunctional family was really making me depressed and I had to take a step back from 1) Hearing about people’s family Easter plans and 2) Everybody’s problems as I wasn’t in a fit state to help in any way and felt they may be triggering. I also withdrew from social media.

I ended up just having a lunch on the Easter Saturday with my kids. I have had no contact with the nasty sibs, just some emails with my older brother who I like.

My rehab has been coming along well and now I just visit the physio every fortnight. I swim twice a week and do a series of exercises each morning and evening as well as walking my dog. The pain is still there but it is tolerable. Progress is evident and hopefully Yoga even if it is modified, will be back on the agenda in a couple more months.

After being in the depths of a bit of despair, I dragged myself up again. I planned a couple of mini goals. One was to make my home a bit cosier so now and then I buy a couple of decorator items and it has certainly made a difference in making me feel more settled.

The other aim was to seek out some company of the male persuasion. I had finally worked up enough courage (a couple of glasses of wine helped) Well, this has had mixed results. I registered on an Internet Dating Site - not the swipe right or left one - and was inundated with meet requests and messages. I’m talking hundreds of them. A tiny part of me felt flattered by all the attention but 99% of me felt like a piece of meat. It really scared me off and I didn’t respond to anyone for a while. Then I started very slowly to message back a few guys who seemed okay.

I have been out on a couple of dates at public venues but nothing has developed as yet. Needing to pace myself and I am extra cautious about trusting anyone. Maybe one day.

Last weekend was the anniversary of my Dad’s passing so that was an emotional time for me. I set off early and took my first long road trip (an hour and a half) to the lookout from where his ashes had been scattered and spent some time reflecting. I also attached an engraved lock to the wire of the fence. I will look for it in a year’s time when I visit again. I took a long walk in a nearby national park and headed back in time for a late lunch with my kids.

Hopefully, now that I am a bit more with it, I can keep you posted and offer something back to this Forum which has been so helpful to me.

Many of you may have been struggling. I have skimmed over a few of the threads. I hope things become easier for all of us and happy times are in sight. You are all very special people and we are fortunate to have this support.

Good to see you back @soul, Hugs ❤❤❤

@soul

Lovely to hear that you are safe..

taking a break from the forums when feeling sensitive and confused has helped me in the past..

receiving 100's of interested male responses on a date site....wow. ..have your children tried to advise?

good luck..

sounds as though you are taking control in all areas...you deserve some rewards..

enjoy and take care..

write when you can xx💚🌷💤🙃