rough time

I am ok @outlander, just taken my night meds. Just waiting for D to be asleep before I am. 💗

I hope shes Sleep soon so you can get some sleep @Snowie 💜

@outlander - I choked on a peice of sausage a few days ago. It was well and truly stuck and boy did it hurt trying to swallow it. I had tears streaming down my face. Finally some water got it down. Its a horrid feeling isn't it?

I've been zoning out a lot too. And I sleep well! I did it at the supermarket today, and the person behind me was trying to get my attention as the checkout girl was ready for me.

You did good today @outlander. You should be very proud of staying safe, especially with triggers happening. See, so even though you didn't think you did good, you actually did. Well done lil Sis. Take that as a win today.

Its really horrid feeling @Sans911
Hmm maybe its just this time of yr. Everyones zoning out.
Thanks sis. ❤
Im t nervous about tomorrow though. I got call on a few weeks ago letting me know there's another women's group with bit of art involved and started last monday but id forgot pluz had the kidd and horses etc but i dont really want to go but they made the art included so it would entice me to go But im scared going back there but i feel they made the effort so maybe i should. Its suppose to go for 3 hrs.

While it's very thoughtful that they did that @outlander you are by no means obliged to go. Do you want to go? Do you feel up to it with your hand and being so tired? Do things not because others want you to, because YOU want to do it. There will be other opportunities another time.

And after the last time, when you felt so uncomfortable and they were not inclusive of you, it's understandable you are scared. If you were treated the same way again, how would you feel about it all?

I dont feel all that up for it @Sans911 i wanted to go before. Its not a program like the other one. This ones run every week but i dont have many other details about it just that they would include an art class each week or something.
I feel like if i dont go then its wasting the opportunity to go but i worry as its an already established group and ita for all ages above 18 but there wasnt much interest in the younger womens group so im suspecting they are all older than i am. I dont know if im trembling because of tomorrow or because of what happened tonight. Maybe i should go and i dont like it dont go back.

Theres a womes group tomorrow. Im not sure about going yet though @Bella1978 but no other real plans just playing by ear sort of thing. Ill take a look at the link tomorrow. I cant find my headphones and it would prob send pop in here lol
What about you?


@Sans911 u ok? Tag me if you need me. I dont mind

@outlander - I'm not living your life, but my instinct tells me that right now you need to pull back as much as possible and simplify things. Self care is an absolute must right now, and you could be again walking into a group that invalidates you and triggers your anxiety. Like I said before there will be other opportunities lil Sis.

@outlander-I'm doing alright. Stop trying to avoid our discussion lol. Right now my priority is you.