rough time

i need to log off for a bit, going to attempt something small for lunch- havent eaten anything today. and then need to pick up the older one and take the kids home.

@outlanderit is ok to have those days. Am here sitting with you hun

thanks @Snowie

i also know @Sans911@Former-Member are with me too- hiding under the likes atm

i think ive worked out this feeling ive been having. Lost.....

i get it quite often but this time its affecting me more than usual and making me think alot more but its also bringing up my mistakes as well.

anyone have any ideas on what i can do?

@Snowie@Sans911@Former-Member@Shaz51@Former-Member(hope thats ok as i was talking to you abit earlier) @Bunniekins

@outlander

In what way/s are you feeling lost? Lost as in not sure what to do with my life? Lost as in have lost something/someone? Or it might be a combination of different things.

@Snowieim finding it really hard to explain so will just type it and hopefully it makes abit of sense

i feel so much has been taken from me, the constant pressures even from such a young age. i mean ok its made me a better person in one way but its also taken alot of 'me' too. i feel im lost in what i should be doing, i feel ive never really had the chance to explore who i am or what i want or just being able to live and expand into 'myself' and not what people expect me to be. ive always been the carer of everyone and had those expectations and pressures of doing that. nursing is something i want to persue as there are many pathways with that and i dont have to be 'stuck' in the same thing.

so many people my age are at uni, or have friends or at least can make them, travelling with others, having kids, and moving into their own houses (like away from parents or family members) or they are dating.

i feel stuck in where i am but at the same time i dont know what it is i would like to do so its hard for me to complain at the same time. but i cant help but think there is more to life than staying at home and waiting around on my pop, and other family and housework. but at the same time im really conflicted because thats all i feel im worth and im scared to branch out. it gets lonely being on my own all the time (im still alone in a room full of people but i dont know why) i try to fit in, make friends but i cant even do that. the horses were and still are in a way a big part of my life. its all ive known besides caring and being that 'maid' an the traumas ive faced.

i just feel so lost, stuck and scared in this life and within myself too

@outlanderI know it is hard and I am guilty of it too, however please try not to compare yourselve to others. No one else is in your situation and for a young person you certainly carry alot on your shoulders.

I can understand those feelings of lost, stuck and scared, but I guess we all experience them in different ways.

You still are young sweetie and finding your way in life and who you are as a person. I feel like I am refinding that out now at my old age!

i try not to compare but when i have everyone around me and i wtiness it all the time. i feel like they are on one side and im on the other like a glass wall. it teases me with the things i struggle to have or gain. @Snowie i dont know what to do really. i dont know whether now is a time to just let things be, work on my mh and let things come and try and fill my day with other things-dont even know what to fill it with. or is now a time to fight even harder but i dont know in what area or how and is hard to do when i dont have the energy. havent even managed my usual walks or exercise- that could be because of all those weeks of no sleep too, i have literally no appetite. tried something for lunch prepared it and then put it back away. couldnt manage it. pop cooked tonight, something simple but usually ok but still no appetitie. there was leftovers so just put it back with that. i feel like a zombie laying on there bed- tired but not sleepy, knowing i have things i should be doing like the housework but dont really want to, should be eating something but just no appetite. i just feel stuck and i dont know how to unstuck myself.

i dont feel very young. i feel really old but i cant help it either. and your not old btw.

Hi @MDT, sorry to hear things are crap for you too.

@outlanderI really think you need to get your mh to a stable point before trying other things. If you have too much on your plate, then you are going to be trying maybe spread yourself out too much.

Sleeping, eating, etc need to come first. I know myself that I cannot function properly if I havent had enough sleep and it i probably the same for you.