rough time

@outlander- of what hun, or why?

Took me about an hr to do those 2 pages but its coming along ok. Started to get prettt overwhelmed so didnt push to do anymore and juat watched a movie for abit. @Sans911 have you done anymore of yours?
Ok ill add that one to my list too

Of my own mental health issues @Sans911 i feel like ive become mh even though i tried not to let the labels overrule everything. I get scared of the intensity of some of those suicidal thoughts and worry that maybe one day i will no longer be able to help myself or itll get worse.
And tomorrow/today for the social group too. I worry my mh will get the best of me and i wont be able to cope in there

@outlander - I've not done anymore of my book, but you are inspiring & encouraging me.

Lil Sis I you are not the labels that are assigned to you. They do define you as a person. They are labels-period. You are not your mental illness either. You are outlander, and all the complexities and characters that make you you. Mental illness is but a chapter, a hiccup in your life that won't be with you forever.

No one knows what the next hour will bring you to let alone the next day. All you can do is be your lovely, charming self and you might find that you really enjoy yourself.

I do hope youll be able to do some more of your book too @Sans911 it was your idea in the first place ❤

I know they are just labels and they shouldnt define me. In a way it has given me the chance to actually learn about what it is but i also feel like its taken alot from me too even before i had those labels. I knew there wasnt something 'normal' about me but didn't know what it was.
The SI becomes scary. I didnt know if i could keep myself safe at one point today but i couldnt reach out for help either not after that appointment and the time after it so i done my book and the movies and just stayed put as best i could.
I dont really know who outlander is anymore. I have completely lost myself.
I do want to go tomorrow but am nervous. I guess thats normal for anyone even without mh issues. You'll only just be waking up when im getting there starts at 930 so 630 for u. And goes till 1230/1

You dont mind talking about this do you? @Sans911 theres no pressure to of course. I just dont have anyone offline to talk to and no big sises here with me like you guys

I think you mightve gone to sleep.
Goodnight sis i hope you aleep well and maybe get your kitten tomorrow @Sans911 🌷🌹😇❤💜💙

@outlander - morning lil Sis. Yeah, I dropped out on you last night. Sorry about that. The meds kick in after about an hour, and I don't get much warning before it's lights out. I try to stick to the same bedtime routine at night, so I get about 7 hours sleep.

I understand you're nervous, which is completely natural. Don't go there though with the attitude of 'I'm not normal, I have mh issues'. You are normal, just struggling like many people to accept yourself and deal with life's challenges. Be yourself. Go there with an open mind, and try to relax. I'm really hoping it goes well for you today. 💕 💕 💕 💕 💕

Thinking of you too @outlander ..... 💕