rough time

How is your day going? @MDT

Lee please explain to me what that means. Deal with the ramifications of what happened for you (is there something you didn't tell me 😞) or something that effected you with Izzy/Nikki

@Lee82 I am worried my love

Please I don't want to upset you. I don't want to worry you more than you already are. I am ok and I am safe. You had a pretty rough day/night yesterday (which is probably an understatement) and you don't need anymore happening for you right now.
but I will say the SH monster got to me last night. Please I don't want to talk about it if its going to make things hard for you. Please you have to tell me if you can't handle it. Today was suppose to be about you and making you feel better today. Not about me. I can wait till later or even tomorrow to chat about it.
@Former-Member

Babe, when did that happen? Please tell me @Lee82

After I fell asleep and woke up from a nightmare/flashback.
@Former-Member

What can I say that will have you really understand how important you are to me? How can I make you see that. How do I make you see that even on my worst days if you are having a bad one too I want you to be honest and tell me.
What will it take for you to understand that even if I am having the most wonderful day, that if you need me I will be there, that no matter how high I am, I am always and I mean always here to listen, love and support you through whatever you are going through.

@Lee82, please realise that you are so special and deserve to have someone love and protect you. Someone to hold your hand through your dark moments and to be there to see you smile again.

I am sorry I wasn't there sweetheart @Lee82

Opening up about my feelings, emotions, thoughts and actions In The past made me lose everything I had. I am afraid that will happen again. I'm afraid that if I share too much that I will lose you either because you cant handle it anymore or because you left this world. I know that I don't have that much power over anybody that they would do that because of me however with what you are going through I just don't want to add anymore pain. I would never ever forgive myself if something happened to you. Last night was one of the scariest moments of my life when I didn't hear from you and I believe I was right in feeling that way because I think something happened for you too but I know we can't discuss it here. And I believe I had said something that may have contributed to what happened. I don't want t to ever do that again.

@Former-Member

Please understand it's not that I don't want to tell you. I do more than you know how much I want to tell you everything. However I just want to make sure it is the right time for you.
please do not apologise for not being there m. Unfortunately we cannot be available 24/7. You kept me safe for as long as we were talking. You helped me get through that tough part of the night. I cannot ask for anymore.

@Former-Member