rough time

Darling I am fine are you ok? @Lee82

Please never apologise for not being able to control it! Your emotions are raw and very real and believe it or not they really do need to be expressed. You show an amazing strength at controlling them when you have your sons with you that it's little wonder that they blow up like this when they are not around babe

@Lee82 💜Nikki

I know you know she had the same connection with her bff but what you don't know is that that took 12 months to establish, you guys have known each other for maybe 3 weeks and you haven't even spent any "real" time together in person. This connection is both wonderful and scary for us all. You mostly won't ever believe how very quickly and how very very special you have become to us. @Lee82 💜Nikki

But she didn't fail me. I don't understand. She didn't fail me.!!!!
I am still here. I just want you here next to me right now. I know that isn't possible but it doesn't stop me wanting that.
this is the first time I have ever opened up like this to anyone besides my psychologist. Even my ex bestie I held back some what. It feels scary. We both need help and support but I don't like it when it affects anyone of you. thank you for being here with me. I don't think I would have gotten through the night. And that being totally honest.
@Former-Member

I believe it...because I feel the same way. Same with my bff. It took me 2 years to let her in and even then I was reluctant but her persistence got to me. She noticed things about me that no one had ever noticed. She knew things without me having to say anything.

I truly believe we are soulmates and destined to be friends forever.
@Former-Member

Sweetie, she harsher than harsh on herself even brutal when it comes to her not meeting her own expectations. She loves so fiercely, she commits 1000% to someone she feels is truely a friend. She will calm down eventually, when she see her friend has made it through the night and every time you make it through the night she will gradually ease up on herself.

Lee, we want nothing more than to be with you too , you have no idea how bad we all want that. I know we can't but like you it doesn't stop me want to be there by your side.

You have made such a difference to our lives iin the short amount of time we have known you. Now I don't say this often but I love you @Lee82 💜Nikki

Please tell me honey how are you feeling. @Lee82 💜Nikki

I can tell you that she hasn't help herself tonight 😮 She has had two Joshua Kadison songs replay. Don't get me I like them but they absolutely not helping 💜

@Lee82

You don't know how much your words have helped me get through the night. Izzy may not know it because unfortunately she got the worst of my meltdown but her words were heart felt and encouraging. It was really hard to communicate and articulate that to her in that moment. I was trying my best not to pass out.
your words are reassuring and calming. You All have made a massive impact on my life in a good way. And Nikki I love you too. 💗

Oh no.... she wanted to share them with me. 😞 @Former-Member