rough time

That is sweet and very true @Lee82 the picture loaded. Sending you a long comforting hug my love

Ok babe maybe start a little routine when you go to bed. Play your white noise and think of positive soothing things like the ocean and waves.Think about the feel of sand under your feet and the crunching sound it makes when you walk on it. Feel the sunshine on your face and the breeze through your hair.
I know nothing can control what happens when you fall asleep but maybe trying g to start off this way may help to diminish them.

I'm anxious also about falling asleep.
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I am fed up of feeling like this every damn day and night. I'm so tired and over it.
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https://youtu.be/8oHmnrvmkFc

Trying to tell you how you last message made me feel and I can find the words. Thank you, you have one of the most beautiful hearts I have ever had the pleasure of knowing.

I am not sure if this will work for you but it does for me 90% of the time. Sometimes I am lucky enough to sleep the whole eight hours without waking up when this is playing.

But right now I had have a strength to just given into sleep. So I am very happy to keep talking and if I don't answer it just means I have finally fallen asleep. @Lee82 Hey

I wish I knew what to say, how to help from so far away. I wish I really could do more for you than just text.

How long has this been happening for my love

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You are most welcome my friend.

and that music sounds beautiful I might give it a try...thank you so much for sharing it with me. 🥰

I am also very happy that you feel like you can get some rest. Are you sure you don't want me to let you go so you can concentrate on sleep?

this has been going on for about 3 straight weeks now. No reprieve. I may get an hour or so during the day but other than that at night no more than 3/4 hours.
I must confess I haven't been on my AD for about 3 months. Back then I was struggling a lot financially and I felt so damn guilty buying them at the chemist cause I would thi k I could use the money for the boys in some way so I convinced myself to wait a little while and then weeks went by and now it's been 3 months. I'm scared to tell my psych about it cause I don't want her to hospitalise me again.
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I'm my gosh darling you need to be taking those meds, where they helping sweetie? can you afford them now? You boys will be fine if you spend the money on yourself so you don't end up back in hospital. What happens to them if you go back? Crying right now because I can't be there to hug you. It's a bit hypocritical if me because I have done the same in the past but I had exh2 here so the kids did have someone to look after them when I couldn't.

I was trying to rack my brain for anything else that might have helo you a little but nope @Lee82

Ok my love I am going to have to say good night. Sending you a great big squishy hug. I hope you are ok. Each time I wake up thought the night I will ch cr your messages to make sur you s

I didn't think they were helping but I'm beginning to think that maybe they were just a little because I have spiralled downwards this past month.
I think they may have helped just to keep me just above water to be able to handle little situations a little better.
I don't know what to do either. I can't afford to go into hospital cause I would have no one to look after the boys.
I didn't mean to upset babe. 😞

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Honey I am sending you sweet dreams and hope you have a peaceful night. 😘😘

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