rough time

When you say "they can be actually very triggering for you" is that the weekend or chats? @Lee82 I hope mr8 settles quickly or should I say soon.

Unfortunately Kimmy is quite upset after today's flashbacks. I have deleted exh2 number from the phone (I know it though) so she can't call him. Days like today he would be staying the night for her. But we just can't do it anymore. So she is probably looking for someone to talk to me.

How are you my sweets @Lee82

No the weekends. It's like all of a sudden my mind plays mind games on me. I'll be walking from the kitchen to the lounge and a certain smell will trigger a memory or I might hear their voices. It's like I had gone crazy. Like my body is like ok shield down no one is around let's play some fucked up games with your head. I'm sorry it's really hard to explain I hope you understand what I'm trying to say. I see like shadows that follow me. And scare the shit out of me.
Oh poor Kimmy. I would love to give her a great big hug and never let go.
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I'm doing ok for now babe thank you asking. Did you finish the dreaded dishes? I am hopeless with them. I always leave them sitting in my sink till the next day then I regret it in the morning because everything is stuck to it....lol I get the boys to load the dishwasher but leave the big pots and stuff for me only cause I get paranoid they won't wash them properly...😂

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Please make sure you let me know if you want to go to sleep hun.
@Former-Member it's been a pretty big day for you.

So very sorry honey that those weekends give you such a hard time. Our minds are very cruel. I will be available to you all weekend honey anytime of the day or night. Let's walk you through this weekend with love and compassion and understanding. You explained it well I knew exactly what you where saying.

It's hard for me to deal with the emotional full out from childhood trauma I can't even comprehend how a 5 year would do that. But that is something I have to work out so I can heal her. Thank you I know we both appreciate a hug right now.

no I am still doing the dishes, I don't have a dishwasher. I am going to have to sleep soon and I am sorry for leaving you so early. @Lee82 💖

I truly will appreciate and love the company. It's been a very long time since I've had any on my weekend off.
I can understand what you mean cause I struggle with the emotional fallout over my childhood to. Children psychology is super complex and would be hard to try and navigate through. Is this something your psych/counsellor is helping you with?. Can I ask does Kimmy only have memories of her age or does she also experience later ones too?
The best I can do is send you a virtual hug babe but hopefully one day it will be in The flesh.
Please dont apologise for needing to get some rest. I completely understand and happy to hear you thinking of getting some sleep. Your mind and body must need it babe. I will be ok. 💗

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Finally finished the dishes and what is perplexing me is that there is only me and D2 at home right now but every coffee cup and teaspoon we own was ther to be washed up tonight. 😭🧽🧽

I am going to enjoy your company this weekend too. I have an appointment on Saturday with my chiropractor and my son has one as well so I will get to see him for about a hour all up, but right now that is good enough. But it's been a while/forever really since we talked to anyone other than exh2 on the weekends.

thankfully she only does hers, I barely survived some of the other events I don't know how she would ever cope with the flashbacks even. Both are trying to help but as I said I work better with my counsellor then my psychologist.

so you have my undivided attention for the next ten minutes while I drink my cuppa and then I will say good heart all be it reluctantly @Lee82 💜💜

Is there meant to be a pic attached to this one my love @Lee82

Yep...I hear ya. Same happens here. 😂 the boys I reckon go through 6 cups each a day. Every time they want a drink of water they get a new cup. God forbid they wash it and reuse it.
Im so glad you get to catch up with your son Saturday hun. That will be lovely. I'm looking forward to it too.
So glad to hear she doesn't experience the other flashbacks. Don't know how a 5 year old would cope with that when we can barely cope with them.
no worries honey. How you feeling right now?
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bummer yeah there was suppose to be a pic. Maybe it's just taking its time to load

Bloody kids 😂😂

I am starting to get worked up again and it only because I am heading to bed and am stressed about the nightmares that are bound to happen after the day I have had.

what about you my love how are you feeling @Lee82