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Tigga321Senior Contributor
Hello,
i am having very dark thoughts from sexual,physical and mental abuse, from childhood and marriage, I can't stop them, my mind just keeps remembering them,I'm not sleeping and all I'm doing is crying all day and night.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
@Tigga321sure ill tag you into it.
have you thought about maybe writing a letter about it? then they can read it and go from there rather than you actually saying it?
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@outlander,
I seen a physiatrist about 8 weeks ago and he kept asking all these different questions then I blurting part of it out to him, he then sent this to psych. with instructions that only if I wanted to talk about, only if I bring it up, my psych is now pushing me. I don't know if she will accept it written out, which in itself will be for me long , hurtful, sad, just as hard to talk about it, triggers will be throwing their darts at me big time, I won't cope either way I don't think.
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
Hello @Tigga321
I just read your thread. I hope the forums are helpful. It is amazing you have survived. Writing has helped me. I hope your mental health team can work well together to give you the support and therapy you deserve. While your children are alive there is a lot of hope for family healing.
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@Appleblossom
Thank you, but I'm not sure about surviving, my minds tied, my body has been violated, my soul destroyed and my children are reluctant to see me.
sorry if I sound damaged, I am...but don't worry I'm safe.
grandy
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Shaz51Senior Contributor
Hello @Tigga321, sending you tender hugs my friend 
keep writting and keep in touch
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AppleblossomSenior Contributor
@Tigga321 I have said similar things about myself. We are both still here though. I am glad that you care enough to reassure us that you are safe. I hope being on the forum gives you nurturing and strength.
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@Appleblossom
Im here yeah, but living no. I am a body filled with nothing but a mind that full of hurt, pain, anguish,etc. everything that is not supposed to be in a human.
The daily struggle of living with triggers everywhere every room, constantly crying and feeling totally encased in a brick wall is not living it's surviving as best I can.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@Faith-and-Hope,
im sorry to say no..I eat only when I can. Then it's only what I have here, maybe toast, or biscuits, or eggs.
i have a hard time going outside my front door, so shopping is scarce,
I have Major anxiety/depression/PTDS. The anxiety is so bad I can't go out, when I manage to get to the shops either just after opening or closing, no one around, I'm in and out in 5 minutes,
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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