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Tigga321Senior Contributor
Hello,
i am having very dark thoughts from sexual,physical and mental abuse, from childhood and marriage, I can't stop them, my mind just keeps remembering them,I'm not sleeping and all I'm doing is crying all day and night.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@outlander,
ive tried meditation, listening to music through ear plugs, colouringin, games on iPad, cleaning house has triggers for me, once I swept, washed and polished the floors in our house, only to find that hubby threw his ashtray all over the loungroom floor trod it in, and spread it everywhere, telling me to clean it before he woke up. Yeah I know I'm pathetic.
Grandy
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@outlander,
Hello, sometimes they work, but lately nothing seems to get me interested enough to even try..I tried music this morning but it just added to the confusion of my thoughts, I haven't tried scrap booking. Or don't have a journal. I can give those a try thank you..
im tired, just so darn tired of everything.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
thank you for sitting with me, it means so much to me..I will try anything to get my thoughts to sleep. Only people I talk to are here in this sight, I'm scared to talk f2f with anyone, even physc, she has had patience but, not anymore I don't think because she said on my next visit we will talk about what I refuse to talk about. This is causing me no end of stress thinking ways to get out of it.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@outlander
Soory I took so long to answer,
No I'm in a really small town 200 residence, one 1 psych. In main town 35 kilometres away. the nearest after that is near to 109 kilometres away. I am not safe driving my car I have attempted 3 times in my car before. I try to advoid my car as much as I can.
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outlanderSenior Contributor
no need to apologise at all @Tigga321 i dont expect answers straight away or a response if your not up for it.
well thats abit sucky isnt it- i mean only havng one psych. have you used helplines before? they are also there for you as well if you would like.
hmm theres a thread on here with coping strategies would you like me to tag you into it and you can take a look at the suggestions there?
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@outlander
I have used lifeline before, but found they listen more then they guide or help me. The coping thread sounds good. I would appreciate that, thank you.
The psych tried just before Christmas for me to open up, mainly about what I posted beach etc.I can't do that, I'm not ready and I don't want to think about how I'm going to be feeling about me after it's brought into the open, when I think about those things here which my mind usually does it makes well......
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