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Tigga321Senior Contributor
Hello,
i am having very dark thoughts from sexual,physical and mental abuse, from childhood and marriage, I can't stop them, my mind just keeps remembering them,I'm not sleeping and all I'm doing is crying all day and night.
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@Faith-and-Hope,
Yes my body is here living now but my mind,thoughts,soul is still living then, they always will, My thoughts are not here, they remember only the pain hurt I went through it won't forget won't let me live in the now, geez even my sons don't talk to me any more, they have kids of their own now, they would die for their kids, why didn't I, because I was weak. I was a very useless mum I don't want to know me anymore.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
We do want to know you @Tigga321, and we are not part of your past.
Rest here awhile .....
Are you okay to tell us which state you live in (only if you want to), and others of us can tell you where we are, just not specifically ie no small town names or anything .......
I am in WA currently, but we will be relocating to the east coast for uni semesters for a couple of years or so shortly, returning here to visit in between.
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@Faith-and-Hope,
Im in NSW..
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@Faith-and-Hope,
I want to be free of everything, I am guilty of so much, no wonder my kids don't want to talk to me any more, I'm over me, over everything, I can't sweep or make the bed or cook or hang out washing without being triggered it's everywhere I go and everything I do.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@Former-Member,
Im sorry you also suffered through pain and hurt.
I have only me now, kids live over 8-9 hours drive away,, kids are married with kids of their own, My life tomorrow , what is it, the same as today, the same as yesterday, trapped with hurt and pain constantly.
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StartaSenior Contributor
@Tigga321
Hello Grandy,
I just wanted to say that I can understand your hurt.
i am also alone now with my family 100 kilometres away, Honey, I read your story and I want you to know my sister was a victim of DV, I know how she suffered with triggers and when the depression hit her it knocked her way down. I have major anxiety/depression, I sit all day and all night with nothing to do, but I need to Change this, I decided to try and devote some of my time here helping people like yourself to start liking yourself again. I have always enjoyed helping people but anxiety won't let me talk easily to them, unless it's behind a computer screen,
Grandy, anytime you want to talk honey, if I can I will come talk to you. If that's ok,
Always be kind to yourself Grandy, you deserve it, you are a very brave person, and I care for you and if you let me would like to help support you through this difficult journey you are facing.
kind and caring thoughts,
Starta
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StartaSenior Contributor
@Tigga321,
Hello Grandy, Just popping in to see how you're feeling today.
If you want to talk remember I'm here listening to you.
Care for you,
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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