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Tigga321Senior Contributor
Hello,
i am having very dark thoughts from sexual,physical and mental abuse, from childhood and marriage, I can't stop them, my mind just keeps remembering them,I'm not sleeping and all I'm doing is crying all day and night.
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@Faith-and-Hope,
Im sorry I've been a way for a while, I just got out of hospital yesterday, my Dr put me in for a few days because I wasn't safe from me. The thoughts of what I've been through are just constantly telling me how useless I am for not taking my kids and walking. My kids remember what they went through. I feel so guilty about everything.
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
Distraction only works for a while.then the trapped get to get out of me comes back.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
Hi @Tigga321,
I am sorry to hear you were in hospital for a stay, but also glad that it helped to keep you safe. Others here have recently been in hospital for the same reason. You are not alone.
I know it’s not a proper solution, however distraction is one method of buying time away from the bad feelings zone. Putting together a set of methods buys a bit more time.
Thinking of you. If I tag from other threads that you are not interested in, please just ignore them.
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soulSenior Contributor
Hi @Tigga321 - @Faith-and-Hope mentioned you in another thread. I have come over here to welcome you and introduce myself.
I know a bit about about being abused as I suffered at the hands of my former partner. I eventually escaped that relationship but understand your feelings of helplessness and worthlessness.
I went to therapy sessions and found them only mildly beneficial. What really helped was meditation through yoga and walking whilst listening to music and with my dog. I also got my body in really good form (until i shattered my arm - but that's a whole other story)
It was my way of empowering myself. When I had bad thoughts and dreams - I told myself that I was safe and put up a virtual shield. Eventually those flashbacks became fewer and fewer. You won't forget but hopefully your reaction will be less frightening.
It sounds like you could use some friends. You have probably found this forum to be a very caring and nurturing place. If you are selective where you go, it can be a wonderful place to hang out. Sometimes you may need a break and that's okay too. Just know that someone is here ready and willing to listen and just be with you if that is what you need.
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@soul
thank you for your welcome. why anyone would welcome me I don't know, I am over the memories of , shame, useless. Guilt, I was weak, my sons suffered because of me being afraid, No I will not forget how stupid,pathetic, dumb II was then I still am. I'm over the whole lot of it.. no I won't sleep, I've kept me up for 3 nights, I don't want to sleep. Sick of what I was and what I am.
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soulSenior Contributor
Hey @Tigga321 - I can empathise with those sick feelings. I wondered how I got myself into the situation I was in and why I kept going back. I became the type of person I used to feel sorry for but thought was feeble.
The important thing is that I am stronger now and know my worth. You will be too. You deserve to be.
Sorry to hear that you are having problems sleeping. It can really mess with your physical and mental well being. Have you tried Valerian? It's herbal and non addictive. Exercise, too is good for wearing you out and promoting sleep. I used to walk and walk until i was exhausted.
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Hi there @Tigga321- always nice to see new members... welcome 🙂
Great to see @Faith-and-Hope and @soul have found you too. Please feel welcome to @ mention me if you have any queries about forum things. There's lots of support and kindness floating around here I hope you can find some when its needed.
I'm going to send you a quick email, if you could please reply when you can that would be wonderful. Thanks 🙂
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@soulI should have taken my kids and left. No just over the constant triggers every single day. I don't want them anymore, I will never forget what I went through, my mind is scared for the rest of my life.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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outlanderSenior Contributor
afternoon @Tigga321 just popping in to say hello and am thinking of you 
i dont have much experience in what your dealing with but am still around if you need an extra hand 🙂
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