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Tigga321Senior Contributor
Hello,
i am having very dark thoughts from sexual,physical and mental abuse, from childhood and marriage, I can't stop them, my mind just keeps remembering them,I'm not sleeping and all I'm doing is crying all day and night.
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@Starta @Faith-and-Hope,
Hello Starta,
Im so sorry about the loss of your husband, he sounds like he was a very nice man.
My husband was cruel, mean, he used me for his own personal servant, I try so hard to forget how I lived for so long but it always tormenting me. I'm just not able to live a peaceful life, to much self hate, sadness, to many.why didn't I, I should of, I hate myself so much, I'm discussed in myself so much, it's making me not want to live anymore, but if I did end my life, that mean he won, I don't want him to win, but the again sometimes I just don't care.
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StartaSenior Contributor
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
Hello @Starta,
You are so kind to speak those words about me but you are so wrong!!! I am not beautiful, nor courageous, My soul has been destroyed I am nothing but an empty shell, I do nothing all day..I don't care,I just....Oh please just forget about me, I am, I am angry at me with me I haven't been outside my door since early December, I haven't shopped, I don't care at all. I am so damaged so scarred just over me. Just forgot you ever read my thread please, I am not going to burden any of you any more. This is my problem and I should be able to suck it in and manage it some how,
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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StartaSenior Contributor
@Tigga321 .
Hello Grandy, I'm sorry I had to leave in a hurry last time, you see I'm all messed inside myself, I am alone now and feel like I don't want to be here anymore, I don't want to feel like this, but I came back in here because I care about you.. I'm here and I just read you are not coming back in to your thread, how dissapointed that makes me feel. I though we could be friends.
I can understand what you have been and are going through, We can talk it out anytime you want to. I'm not going anywhere,
please remember you are cared for by me and the other wonderful people here.
I will just sit and wait for you to come back if that's okay.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Tigga321Senior Contributor
@Starta @Faith-and-Hope,
im sorry about my outburst, it's just that I hate me for what I let happen to me.
I hate remembering all the time, my psych visit tomorrow, and I'm scared because Sh wants me to tell her about what I went through, talk about what happened to me, what he done and made me do. I haven't done this as yet as I have refused, but this time she said it's a must do, and I don't know how to speak about it without breaking down, I don't want to breakdown in front of anyone, especially my psych.
i really am sorry.
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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Faith-and-HopeSenior Contributor
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